Friday, October 28, 2005
11:06 PM Y
i found the joy that i've been missing out.. x)
♥ just the girl.
whoa.. it's been so long since i've blog. i think, i shant write bout the past 3 days, since it's the past already. in short, those three days were really hectic for me. i was quite busy and my feelings were really confusing. so yep, that's bout it. it's just complicated. so anyway, it's a new me! and a new beginning! today, started off wif me going to sch again. took my own sweet time as usual. heh. today arts fest also mah. so no lesson. woohoo. shuang. today is officially the last day of sch but the sec3 got extended lesson till 15 nov. sian loh. so anyway, tooked 30 cuz i noe 33 sure packed de. den walked to sch n reached dere bout 7am. den i slpt till i hear the bell den went for assembly. hahax. lazy me rite. PIG! hahax. den got some prize presentation after flag raising. den we went to the audi for the on-the-spot dance comp. my class no rep sia. haha. sad. i think the 3H one dance until damn seductive loh. and also one word which i dun wan n shld not use. *sorry God..* and worst thing was, she WON.. cant believe it.. nvm. forgive n forget. heh. i think shaz n huda shld have won first tho. haha. so anyway, after that, we went back to class to do the tk organiser design. cant believe i took it seriously n actually drew quite nicely. haha. to me, it's quite nice le cuz my art sux. hahax. den while i was doing, yeok fei help me plait my hair. hehe. den peck peck jealous, den also want. haha. i hadta lend her one of my rubberbands loh! den i left wif two plaits nia. bleah. hahax. still, i did it so slow. den time to go audi again but i havent do the write-up rite. slow poke loh me. haha. so no choice, went to audi n finished it.
in the audi, yu quan n ben was sitting behind us. den when i was doing the write-up. yu quan go say some things which i think he should not loh. but that's him loh. always saying things before he think if it will hurt the other party not. i wasnt hurt lah. i was more of angry. so i go say him loh. den he shuddup le. =X hmm.. after that, the hair styling fashion show started. wah.. all the hair hor.. ok lah. some quite nice. but some hor, really like s*** loh. =X sorry ah.. but it's the truth! cant believe ash n esmi won second n first respectively. =X it's just so erm.. got no comments. was expecting 3f that team to win tho. cuz i felt that the hair style was not bad. just that they chose the wrong model. =X hehe. before the judges collate the points, there was a commercial brake. and when i say commercial, i mean REAL commercial loh. haha. as in ADVERTISEMENTS. haha. unbelievable. put up by the sec1s summore. one was about pizza, 3 FOR 1! haha. den another was about an energy drink. qutie lame one. den the last one was the BEST! haha. it's advertisement bout the uses of an umbrella. *wouldnt it be nice if you have an umbrella..... wouldnt it be nice?* haha! so cute leh the boy! hehe. after that, T2B n bryan er performed! woohoo! their voice rocks loh! now plus music, even better! nice sia.. finish le den alot of ppl shout 'encore!' haha. they should have won the talent search loh. and not that flavorlicious. sian. hahax. after that, it was recess and i got to c the year book. yun ting de. she leaving sch early that's y receive so early. i look horrible loh! eeww.. sian. haha.. after recess was cleaning up. sian loh. so we clean clean clean. clean finish le den was giving out of the year book n the results slip. was disappointed to find out that i've dropped one class position and that equals to 23 level position! sian. still, wanna thank God for the good results. my L1R5 maintained at 16. praise God. after sch, i got alot of things to carry home sia.. sian. my table top de design also. but i actually slipped it underneath the door of the gym. =X hehe. i very lazy to bring home. heh. den after that went home le loh. walked up the gate wif nik. actually hor, i wanted to b cold towards her n shan. =X sorry but i felt kinda betrayed by them. cuz they came to sch late today, together wil piggy n kest i think. prob went to eat and din even ask or tell me. =X nik is my best fren summore. haix. was abit disappointed lah. but now that God has set me free n i have found the joy that i've been missing out, i'm not really affected le. plus, i'm improving! i dun like look out for piggy anymore. God has set me FREE! woohoo! x) praise him forever. and anyway, i couldnt bear to b cold towards them too. they're my frens. x)
when i reached home, i ate my lunch n used the com. read the email that my dad sent us. he wants me n mid to shower my care n love to our little sisters. will try loh. and he wants us to take up a foreign language! AAHHHH!! not only do i wanna take up guitar lessons, i also wanna take up drumming. plus, i havta commit to my CCA n i wanna work to lighten my mum's load! and now, taking up a foreign language?! that's insane! how to cope?! plus O levels next yr! AAHHHHH!! HOW HOW HOW?! *God help me!!* haix sian loh. better pray for God's wisdom. so after replying his email, i went to... SLEEP! HAHA! PIG PIG! woot! hahax. supposed to wake up at 4 pm to go parkway to develop some photos but no discipline! argh.. haha! i slept frm 2 plus, all the way to 5.30pm. =X heh. woke up, use abit of com, den bathe n went to church le. the whole journey dere, i was qutie awake, listening to my mp3. and even tho i dun think bout piggy that already, i still count the number of CAK bags i see. it's so interesting n fun! haha. it's the most common bag i see loh. up till today, as in frm the start of dis month till now, i've seen 44 bags! haha. cool hor. oh yah.. the umbrela advertisement in the audi they also got use. heh. oh yah. was also smsing liang jing. talked to him bout christ and God's second coming. he din seem to like me talking bout christ but i still did anyway. i confessed to him that i havent been a gd testimony recently but i'm gonna change! cuz i've found joy in the Lord! x) and i wanna forget bout all the hurts in my life. he wasnt quite convinced. den din managed to catch the shuttle bus when i reached yishun. so rushed to the bus interchange n thank God, managaed to reach church on time. i think worship started a little earlier today. as i stepped into the providence today, it felt different. the feeling was great. at that point of time, i knew that i was changed, i was renewed! praise God! x) hehe. so lesson also ended qutie early today. it was a fruitful one as once again, i've learnt that God will give us victory! x) woot.
sad to say, the bus ride to tampines affected me spiritually again. all because of a sentence my sister said. "go and sit behind wif sing tee lah." u really dunno how it feels loh. she can sit wif jia min, bernice or joelle but she just cant sit wif ME. it made me feel as if my presence was hated. den i remembered bout dis morning shan n nik late one. that proved my feelings even more right. haix. i was so disappointed wif myself for feeling that way. but i immediately prayed. it din worked instantly. instead, i was very affected so i listened to my mp3 on the bus n din really talked to anybody. i was really bout to cry, thinking that no one likes me to b around them. i continued to feel liddat but put on my best smile when we dropped off the bus n talked. on the way up the escalator on the mrt, my sis said she din wan me to sit beside her was cuz she noe she'll b noisy. but how bout joelle? she very noisy one meh? no loh. she's the quiet type. mayb talk alot to my sis bout jap stuff, but not to the rest. n jiamin's not that noisy either. wat makes me any different? haix. den after yireng alighted at bedok, i knew my sis was trying to make the chang mian not look so bad but talking to me bout art fest? oh well, felt so so bout it. reach home le den i went to eat maggie den here i m blogging loh. talked to ivan just now and he asked me who hated my presence. and i said everybody with a question mark at the back. but i added, except God. den ivan assured me that the everybody is exclusive of him. i was quite comforted by wat he said. he also assured me that no matter wat, God still loves me! x) *thanks ivan!* felt much better den n much much MUCH better now.
i've decided that i'm gonna change for the better! i'm gonna show the world that God lives in me! i wanna b a gd testimony to my frens around me. i'm gonna b a happy n cheerful girl once again cuz i've found the joy that i've been missing out all because of one unworthy guy. and i found it none other than in the Lord! x) thank God for renewing me today. i will continue to pray for God's mercy upon my life n the world. and i pray that i will not stray away from him again. tmr will b a new day, a new beginning. my new life starts tmr! x) and tmr is tk's open hse. i think the sch very kiasu loh. hehe. so early open hse le. but watever it is, i'm involved n havta b dere early.. *God, guide my every action n be wif me tmr..x)* will blog again tmr.. woohoo...
