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Wednesday, December 27, 2006

1:41 AM Y

♥ just the girl.

alright. just to update u guys, i have transferred to anderson jc thru my coach. which means, my appeal is successful! thank God!

but actually, on second thots, i dunno how m i gonna tahan the distance. it's like travelling to church everyday. sigh. well, i chose this path. shld have studied harder and gone to tjc. just hope i'll do better my Os.

hmm. ajc aint that bad. it's just the distance. if u look at it another way, guess it's easier for me to go to church cuz it's nearer. =]

sigh. i have so much to say but i dont know where to start. and neither do i know how to say. kinda fan lately. dont know wat else to do but pray.

i mean, i'm just being me. just talking like myself. am i giving the wrong idea. wat exactly am i doing.

and HE. why he dont want reconcile wif her. she still loves him. why is he so CRUEL! ARGH!!

sorry.. dont mind me.. just trying to vent my frustration.. alright..

AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok ok. done.

will blog again.
bye.

VIRNICE.

Friday, December 15, 2006

1:54 AM Y

♥ just the girl.

ok. and so, i can finally blog. stupid computer.

alright. latest news. i got into nanyang jc. thank God i guess. other ppl got into worst schs. ohh well. better news is, i'm probably appeal. cuz nanyang has NO TRACK TEAM. imagine that. gosh.

so i'm calling my coach tmr to see wat he can do. clar also got into the same sch as me. well, if the appeal fails, at least i know i'm not alone. so thank God. =]

hmm. nth much to say. or mayb not. mayb i have one whole load of things to say but i just dunno when to start.

maid's gone. dad's not back yet. mum's stress over hse work. i'm currently holding two jobs. help mum wif hse work. lack of sleep and everything else seems to b piling on top.

mum claims i dont talk to her enuf. when actually, i tried but doesnt work. cried one whole night. eyes swell. go to chalet. b crappy. go high. make ppl laugh. well, that's me.

but u know wat? i still believe that i'm sent by God to bring joy and be a blessing to the ppl around me. i'm not perfect. and mayb sometimes, i really dont know howta cheer ppl up. all i know is, i can just b myself. the crappy me. the high me. the me that is also full of smiles and jokes.

i know alot of ppl are facing wif problems and are very pessimistic. but all that are the work of the devil. God's return is very near. and i think we have to b prepared. that's y so many ppl is facing so many problems during this period of time, including myself.

it's difficult to keep up a smile during this period of trials and problems. but i always have the strength to do so because i get it frm the Lord. i'm not trying to boast bout how holy i am or watsoever.

i'm here to say that i'm just like everyone out there. a someone that is so imperfect. someone that falls during times of difficulties and discouragement. i admit that sometimes my smiles are so fake. but that's in the past. because now i draw strength frm Him.

wat saddens me now is seeing the ppl around me one by one fall. if I can do it, why cant you. i'm just like every other person on this planet earth. i really wish i can do sth to help.

just came across one. keep claiming he's ok when he's not. only when he goes before God and confess that he's not ok and needs God, then he can find that happiness again. and ican feel that God is using me cuz i'm saying things that i dont even know that i know. i really hope he will stand up on his feet once again.

and another one. both says LIFE SUX. life sux without God but it rocks wif God in it. we must include God in everything we do. only then we can find peace and joy. i tried to talk to him but nth seems to go in. he nvr talk liddat before. just cuz the girl he likes has gone to a diff jc frm him and moving to another side of spore. and also, he got into a shit jc. why cant he just see it in a diff perspective. things isnt as bad is it seems.

it's the process that counts, not the ending. because it is during the process that we learnt sth. the ending doesnt matter. it doesnt matter whether we succeed or fail. we matters is we TRY. that's all. even it is fails, at least we TRIED. and that's wat counts. process process process!

i've tried to speak some sense into him and all he can see ok lah u win u win. happy?
of cuz i'm not happy! why would i b.

but know wat? i'm not gonna let the devil win. in fact, i'm gonna try EVEN HARDER. this discouragements wount get me them. all i need to do is to PRAY and to KEEP TRUSTING.
i know God will use me more, somehow.

and you know, as i'm typing all of this, these words are also encouraging me. to keep on having faith. even the ppl around me fall, the more i cant! cuz God will need me to help them. =]

and so can you! God will use whoever that is willing to b used by Him to b a blessing to the ppl around them. JIAYOU! all is not lost!

and, sometimes, things arent like wat it seems to b. God sees the bigger and better picture. he is just revealing to it slowly to us, part by part. soon, we'll get to see the whole beautiful picture. patience is a virtue. and of course, faith is needed. =]

JIAYOU! xD

VIRNICE.