Saturday, October 29, 2005
4:11 PM Y
not again!! haix..
♥ just the girl.
woo.. blogging early today. mayb later tonite will blog again. see how loh. today kinda sux. =X everything seems to be back to how it was again. haix. u'll know wat i mean later. so anyway, today, me woke up at 6.45am to go to sch. but den hor, as i walked to my mum's bedroom the toilet, i saw the bed and was tempted! hahax. so i immediately lie on it and fall aslp instantly. my maid came into the room at 7am, prob wondering why i took so long to brush my teeth and she found me sleeping! haha. so she faster came over to wake me up. noe how pig i m now? =X heh.. i quickly wash up and packed my stuff and den left for sch. reached dere bout 7.55am and was irritated to noe the back gate was locked! sian. so hadta walk to the front gate that is soooooooo far away. haha. ok mayb i'm just lazy. hehe. upon reaching, i only saw ben ben dere! hahax. den later saw justyn n gerald already at the field. woot. haha so we quickly arranged the tables n chairs before we set up our booth. it was tk open hse, btw. hehe.
at bout 9 plus, me n shuyi needed to go parkway to develop some photos. before that, i called clarisse cuz i knew she wanted some of the photos. den i ask nik to help me ask piggy if he wanted any of the photos. den piggy said he want those that has his face on it but how much. hahax. so nik asked me and i told her about $3. den i asked her if it is inclusive of the photos that me n him took together. so she went back n asked him n he said ya. i was quite shocked ah. but din noe which pic he was refering to. so asked her to confirm wif him and he was irritated liaox. sian. i also cant b bothered le. so we went ahead n i developed the photos that had his face, except for two. wah.. me n shuyi was trying very hard to make the number of photos to b over 100 so that it's cheaper. thank God we managed to do it. we hadta wait like 45min for our photos to develop. so meanwhile, we went to buy bubble tea n eat kfc fries. after eating, it was still early, but we decided to check if the photos were ready n thank God, it was. so we collected it n rushed back to sch. at that time, the open hse started liaox. we went to our booth n sorted out the photos before giving it out. all in all, there were 113 photos. haha. alot rite. haha. so later on, we slacked n slacked cuz there were hardly any parents around. i was quite surprised cuz i tot tk was quite popular n would definitely have alot of outsiders coming in to take a look at tk. but today proved me wrong as dere was hardly any parents, or rather, very FEW. so anyway, i was practising my hurdles on the field as i slacked. so sian loh. it was a waste of time. and i dunno why but the feelings for piggy seemed to come back. that sux. i felt that way cuz somehow, i was always looking out for him. thank God, it's kinda gone now...
i remember as i sat at the bench, nik was holding on to some neoprints so i asked if i could look and she passed it to me. it was neoprints of her n shan. immediately, i knew they went out yest. den i looked for the date and i was right. at that moment, i felt betrayed and hurt. i could feel a stab in my back. and nik was my BEST fren! haix. i asked her if she wanted to develop the photos yest after her tuition. she told me that she wasnt sure and that shan has asked her to go bugis but she wasnt sure if she could go. she den told me that she would sms me after her tuition. guess wat she said? she told me that she had no money and prob develop the photos another day. WOW. no money n yet can go out n take neoprints wif shan. haix. at least tell me that she's going out wif shan instead and not LIE about it. dis made me feel that my presence was REALLY hated. i think the reason why she lied bout it was because she din wan me to know den then tag along. haix. felt so hurt. i wanna b happy, but circumstances dun let me. besides that, when i passed homing his photos, he asked me to keep first n give it to him at saira's hse later cuz her bday party. actually, i knew she had a party long ago and that i wasnt invited. but homing was the THIRD person who asked me and i hadta say i wasnt invited. it's quite paiseh. but at that time, i was hurt again. homing insisted that i was invited but i told him i din receive the invitation. he exclaimed that he din receive it too but was sure i was invited. i was like no lah no lah. den he say if i dun believe den he find saira and ask her. in the end, he din not get back to me and i even saw both of them talking. oh well, wat can i say? my presence is really hated bah. ppl dun like me being around them. so i will stay away from them from now onwards. mayb bcuz i spoil their mood. or watever. i dun care le. now, i noe who my true frens in sch are. and there's only two - shuyi and clarissa. they havent nvr let me down before and i can trust them. from everything that has happened, i've learnt, and thru the hard way, that NO man can be trusted. they'll just stab u in the back in the end, even ur BEST fren. i dun hate her tho. forgive n forget bah. but mayb now, i'm just not gonna tell her anything bout me anymore. just frens.
now, i'm feeling much much better tho. i realised that dere's no point getting sad n hurt over unworthy ppl aka hyprocrites. they give me the feeling that they like me n treat me as a gd fren but it is all a pretence. but watever it is, it's over now. i'm just gonna work on my tmr and believe that God has everything planned out for me. i'm gonna b a happy n cheerful girl, like i promised. not gonna let this little thing stand between me n my BIG God. i will walk in his ways and pray for his mercy upon my life. i thank God that i know him. i also thank God that he has brought my thru everything and that he has NEVER EVER left my side. iloveGOD! he totally ROCKS MY LIFE! woot! everyday is a new beginning, plusi have God! i have nth to worry about... x) tmr will b better...
