Saturday, November 05, 2005
11:25 PM Y
a day to remember. x)
♥ just the girl.
hey. here to blog again! hahax. woo.. as u can see, i had a memorable day today! hahax. u'll find out soon.. so anyway, wq, sy and nik came my hse today to do clar's present. nik came the earliest as she hadta leave early. den wanted to wait for sy to come first before watching THE PRINCE AND ME. but den hor, we decided to go ahead without her cuz she seemed to take forever to come! wahahax. we started doing when everyone was dere. the tv was a distraction man! hahax. nobody could really do anything. think i did most of it. but nvm, it's not finished yet. tmr ask them do more. hehehex. xP after taht, i rush to heart.sports le. even tho i reached a little late, thank God the game hasnt started yet. apologized to lao da for being late cuz he wanted me to bring mid's rakect and i told him i'll b dere at 3pm. =X hmm, dere, saw that ice was very sad liddat. like mei xing qing. i noe she had a prob lately but i to she ok le. went to talk to her but was kinda rejected. will say more bout her later. so anyway, capt ball started at4pm. wah.. tough game, even tho i muz say the first 10min of the game was qutie relaxed. but ah, the last part of the game was competitive ah! thank God i managed to shoot in quite a few goals today. i dunno were we rough or wat, but dere seemed to b more west ppl who got injured than east ppl. in fact, no east ppl got injured. =X putting away the fact that i was wif an injured ankle lah. hehe. but the whole game was tiring for me man. that ankle of mine was killing! but i played on. thank God nothing happened but i think alvin and yi reng is right. i better not take God's mercy for granted and go see a sinseh soon. that's wat i'm gonna do on monday so that as i rest in the hospital after my op, i can rest my ankle too. probably gonna get a ankle guard as well to prevent my ankle frm giving way. heh. after heart.sports, went to eat dinner wif lao da, nelwin and alan. and as the title suggest, it IS a day to remember as i learnt alot today.
we went to far east to have our dinner at some malay stall? yea i think so. haha. somehow, we started talking bout BGR. oh yah, i remember now. lao da called twinnie to 'scold' her for pangsehing me. hahax! den after he hung out, i was like saying her cousin is worst. =X den they all started asking why and all. den i was like huh? ur dunno meh? =X den lao da guessed it loh. sian. gonna buay tahan soon. but thank God for controlling my temper loh. haix. he's like my dad or sth, everything i do, muz tell him. it's seems like he's asking me wat i m doing every hourly. ok mayb i'm exaggerating a little, but yah, i cannot tahan. =X den alan started giving his opinions loh. i think reading of relationships books has really benefitted him alot and i've learnt alot frm him too. and he really noes how i feel loh. like getting irritated and things liddat. and i like the way he thinks. he thinks that even if he likes a particular girl, he should treat every girl the same. i mean ya loh, that's how, in a way, u wun scare her away. just start off as frens first. he also says that he wun everyday sms or talk to the girl he likes. he will give her some space. den mayb once in a while talk to her. i think that shld b the way loh. actually alan not bad loh. whoever is his gf in future is very blessed. hehe. x) i agree that he talks alot! but i dun mind. cuz it's really good. and practical. anyway, i talk alot too! that is if i wan to. hahax! wat's gd bout lao da is that he likes to listen. that's y they make gd frens. hehe. after staying quite awhile at the dinner place, we decided to go walk ard fareast and mayb look around stuff for retro christmas. hahax. abit kiasu but nvm mah. early better den wun last min. hahax. x)
later, we decided to go for a drink at ah mei toast or sth liddat lah. hahax. alan introduce de. we hadta wait quite awhile for a seat. den later, the three of them ordered ice tea and egg while i had ice milo only cuz i dun take tea and was quite full le. hahax. and den, we talked again. hahax. i think alan is really an ideal husband loh. hahahax. he can cook summore. hahax. he's quite sweet lah, cuz he says he will reserve his first kiss for his BRIDE. means only when he married that day den he will have his first kiss. i think it's quite meaningful loh. i felt abit convicted also. =X acutally, the conversations we had during dinner and till 'supper', i was quite convicted. but i really thank God that he has set free now. some things that alan n nelvin mentioned, convicted me but that's the old me. it's a new me now. x) so anyway, somehow, adidas got pulled into the conversation. i think it was lao da who first talked bout him. he asked me if i noe wat he said to adidas den i was like huh dunno. den lao da told me that he asked adidas not to give up on me. i was quite shocked acutally. i tot lao da was on my side. =X den he told me that he wants adidas to b focused. plus now, he shld concentrate on his Os. actually, the reason i want him to give up is because i'm afraid to hurt him again. *but lao da, u ask him not to give up, den wat if i hurt him again? =X* haix. den later, i also told lao da, bout the book he lent me. one of the story is the same scenerio as me n adidas. the girl also strongly rejected that guy, without much consideration. but in the end, they were together. den he was like yah yah.. i was like oh no oh no.. hahax! xP i also remember, there was one period of time where the guy was very cold to the girl. den that guy got a gf but it din work out. but he nvr forget bout the girl. so he decided to try again. and den blah blah and they were together. hahax. i also dun wan go think so much loh. after all that has happened, no more relationships for me until God tells me i'm ready. my heart belongs to God now, like i said. so he will choose whom he wants to give it to. hehex. oh yah, den i also told lao da and alan how bad i felt that adidas spent so much money on me and yet i rejected him. =X i cant really remember wat they say. sth like it's he who wanna give den dun need feel bad or sth liddat? aiya i cant remember le. told u i got STML. hahax. we talked quite a bit dere lah. but i couldnt get my mind off some things. watever alan n lao da said, is really practical lah. den i also dunno wat to do or howta think. just trust God loh. so anyway, after that, we went home le loh.
the journey home was a thinking one indeed. hahax. watever lao da n alan said, kept flowing thru my mind. it seemed like i'm reading a book, except that it was verbally read. hahax. i tot bout adidas also. and think i've sometimes gone overboard by being so cold towards him loh. was very convicting loh. cuz i've not been a gd testimony. and also to shawn. =X fa pi qi on him today. and was quite cold towards him. every sms he sent me, it was always a short yes or no. but haiya, it's like history repeating itself ah. and knowing wat kind of person i m, i will get irritated loh. if i reply him like normal, happy, he'll think it's ok to keep on msging me loh and i dun really like it. but him, being 12-yr-old kid, i'm sure his mindset very simple one loh. wun think he's irritating me or anything. or mayb cant even tell i'm irritated wif him. if he could, he wouldnt be msging me EVERYDAY even tho i dun reply to most of his msges le. i.. i.. aiya i just dunno wat to do already. haix. God help me.
now bout ice, she's facing some family prob loh. and sometimes, i feel like i fail as her fren. she keeps blaming God for not answering her prayer and everything i said to her, doesnt seem to speak to her heart. she's so... COLD! cold towards God. her heart has really harden and she summore say she QUIT going to church! haix. she also said she has been scolding bad words again, back to the same old her le. she told me she's not the ice she use to b. she's not ice anymore. haix. sometimes, i'm so discouraged by the things she said, but i'm encouraged by God. all the things he has done in my life, it's just AMAZING. i've also just gone thru my trial not too long ago. i fell into the same trap twice in a row, but eventually, God brought me thru! praise God! i understand that many ppl are faced wif problems nowadays but we must remember that God is coming back and dese are the signs of the end of the edge. read matthew 24 or mark 13 or Luke 21:5 and u noe wat i mean. in fact, there are many other chapts int he bible which says bout the signs of the end. we will face trials but we muz stand firm in the Lord! x) also, one more verse which wenyi shared to me just now and which i would like to share to ur. 1 Peter 4:12. i think it really helps me loh! it gives me God's assurance. so fear not! x) that is all i havta say bah. i will pray for those who are facing trials now. God's mercy is crucial. i pray that God will bring you all thru! and muz have faith. faith in God that he is in control. x) ok, blog till here. gotta zZzzzZ le.. got church tmr.. and no worries cuz God holds our tmr! x)
