Sunday, December 11, 2005
11:33 PM Y
alone
♥ just the girl.
argh.. i actually wrote dis post liaox but den my connection had prob and everything was gone! just liddat. sian. haix. nvm. write again loh.
so sad ah. ber go hongkong le. x( den tmr my three sisters and my dad are going dere too. i heard they're going disneyland together. hahax. but sad. i'm ALONE. x( dun wanna go lah. cuz dun wanna miss training. =X stupid reason rite. but i dun wanna ban tu er fei! hehe.
and even tho i was quite happy that it was gonna b peaceful at home, i noe things will not b the same when they're not ard. x( oh well. it's only for five days. x) that's a brighter side to look on i guess. just hope they wun extend their stay dere. =X
well, no ber. no mid. but i have dennis! hehe. he so cute lah. i put that as my sub nick den he say dere's him. thanks dennis. u can b my kai xin guo. hehe. xD dun wan lah. later SHE jealous. =X hehe. no lah. frens nia ok.. xD
anyway, i stil have jiamin! my hubby! xD hehe. and my lao da! xD and many more. i need u guys most during this period of time k. xD thanks u all! xD
so anyway, talked to weisheng yest. cant believe he would still post that on my tagboard! haix.
to weisheng.
hey. everybody said that in a moment of anger, including urself. so why say such stuff? ok ok. everything's my fault alright? let the past be the past. and FORGET the past k. FORGIVE and FORGET. that's wat we all shld do now.
after wat u said to me at CG, i tot u ok liaox. why post that? i think this shld come to an end already can? in the first place, none of this concerns you also. it's between me and jovin. even tho now i still feel awkward seeing her, i'm trying my best already! i just need time k.
and weisheng, u need to noe that i can confide in certain ppl only. not all. and sorry to say, i cant confide in you or jovin. sorry. i only treat both of u as my frens now ok? i hope you'll have forgiveness in ur heart. and not talk about dis anymore or hold any grudges. May God richly bless you.
haix.
i found out a truth yest. that was the root of the problem. but.. haix. i wun mention it or i will make things worst.
to all.
i'm sorry for causing so much trouble. but, i really hope there'll b no unforgiveness anywhere in ur hearts or i'll feel really bad. i nvr wanted to hurt anybody. and that's why i use nick names to represent ppl. i nvr tot it was easy to guess who. but i was wrong. and i'm sorry.
all i wanted was to express myself. cuz nobody understands. except God. i hope this misunderstanding or watever u call this, will come to an end. i really dun wish to talk bout it anymore. things may or may not go back to the way it was but time will tell. give me some time.
and actually, i'm kinda glad dis thing happened. of cuz not glad cuz it got so bad. but glad cuz i found out who my true frens really were. i was wrong bout my efc frens. i'm sorry. =X they were dere when i needed them. to encourage me and give me advices. and most imptly, to lend me a shoulder to cry on and a listening ear. thank God for all of you! x)
it's my fault for not opening up. i admit. so sorry. i'll try to change k. like i said, time is all i need. x)
sorry again for everything that has happened. just dun talk bout it anymore ok. i'm sure God has better things installed ahead for us! xD God bless all of you!
so yep. that's all i havta say.
oh yes. had a family dinner today. that's y miss lao da de bday celebration! *sorry lao da! =X hope u like the present!xD* we ate at sakae sushi! hehe. den did a litte shopping. hahax. bought a shirt and shorts at S and K. hehe. xD
midori shopped the most today loh. den tmr going hongkong, shop summore. aiyo. haha. hmm reach home den i peng sang liaox. just plopped on the bed and fell aslp. =X woke up at ard 10plus. hahax. den blog le loh.
anyway, dunno wat happened to my dad leh. today dun wanna go church. haix. FYI, he just came back frm pakinstan bout 2 days ago. he's currently working under the UN that's y he's hardly home. he flew back 2 days ago so that he can bring my sisters to hongkong for a holiday tmr. haix. he backslide le. muz continue to pray for him.
hmm other den that, i think today was a quite okay day loh. as usual. God has blessed my day. xD
ah hah. someone nvr go church today. shld i b sad? haha. nvm bah. just continue to pray for that person.
ahh! HE likes HER?! muz be! shld b! SHE likes HIM too! i think.
ahahaha.
dunno wat i'm feeling right now. happy for them or sad? wahaha.
those irritating feelings just wun go away.
but wif prayer and wif time, i'm hope it will. x)
at least i noe God will help me. xD
just wanna keep running..
and running..
and running...
or time will just stop at THAT moment.
my wishful thinking. hahaha.
oh well, God is in control! xD
so alone dis week. but i'll get thru! wif God. x)
sending my sisters and dad off tmr. and ONLY me. sad moment? mayb. but five days only! hehe.
sentosa on thursday. woot! xD
oh yes. wondering why i'm writing liddat? cuz ppl complain that my blog very difficult to read cuz too many words! hehe. hope dis is easier for all of you. God bless you! xD
