Monday, December 12, 2005
11:23 PM Y
happy birthday lao da!
♥ just the girl.
to lao da.
happy birthday to you. happy birthday to you. happy birthday to lao da. happy birthday to YOU!
hehe. hope u like the cake and present! xD and i know u had a super duper SWEET birthday lunch yea! wahaha. and thanks for the dinner. x) haha. all the best! xD
so.. as u can, today is my lao da birthday! haha. missed his bday celebration yest cuz had a family dinner. so made it up to him today by having dinner wif him and nicholas. also gave him a cake and a card. hehe. xD
saw kathy at bugis today! xD she was wif her bf. so sweet. and i actually tot she was still single. hehe. but praise God! xD they look so sweet together. hahax. God bless them! x)
and also saw auntie sindy today. x)
yepx. and my sisters and dad flew off today. and guess wat? i couldnt wake up in time to send them!! =X so useless lah me. haiyo. now i'm gonna mayb miss them for 5 days. oh well. time FLIES so fast that they'll b back in no time. wahaha.
well, looking on the brighter side, i'll get to spend more time wif my mum! just me and my mum! how nice is that. hehe. but she gotta work. so probably spend time wif her at nite. =
she has like so many problems and sometimes, i just feel so helpless. not only her boss is giving her probs, i think dis family is also giving her. she may seem so happy on the outside, but i noe, deep within her she's not. she's hurt. she's stress. she's tired. haix. i cant do anything but pray.
my dad.. has really backslided. my mum told me that dis morning when she said she wanted to pray for them before they left, my dad was like, "you all pray." haix. wat happened to him? he dun even wanna go church. hurts me to see him liddat. but i cant seem to talk to him. moreover, he's in HK now. i can only pray.
seeing my parents liddat, i feel so helpless. i wanna lighten their family burden that's y i have to go JC! and do well in the Track and Field Championships! i dun wanna let them down. my mum says i''m her only hope. mayb bcuz my other three sisters are not doing as well in their studies. and den i did quite badly for my final yr exams. i felt so bad. i want to make it up to her.
thankfully, i got the Merit Bursary Award. even tho it's not say very gd, i noe i made my mum proud of me. thank and praise God! x) and guess wat, i'm eligible to apply for it! i think.. u can guess why i am eligible to apply for it bah. =X will b going for the ceremony soon.
anyway, i know next yr's gonna b a tougher yr for me. cuz i have my Os and also, i stress that i muz do well and not let my mum down. but i noe, God will b wif me! xD i'll just continue to pray for this family.
THE POWER OF PRAYER! hehe. xD
so.. had training today! it was ok but i almost walked when we were running the 3km! =X but i told myself, since i chose training instead of HK, i better train well! if not, it's so wasted loh.
when running, i also prayed that God will give me strength and the stamina to finish it and praise the Lord! i finished it without stopping! xD even tho i wanted to stop and walk many times and even tho i wasnt feeling too good cuz was still a little sick but thank God i din and completed it! xD
yep yep yep. haha. after training, went to bedok wif clar. just did abit of shopping and TALKING. felt better after telling her my tots. x) and i'm glad she's becoming more christiany! hehe. will b bringing her to church on retro christmas and on christmas day itself. x) thank God! finally, she's coming! whee. hehe.
to clar.
thanks for hearing me out! and thanks for being dere for me and listening to my crap during training. hehe. xD dun worry k. just tell HIM! scold HIM! ask HIM! and if the truth isnt wat u really want to hear, i'm always here. x) my hotline is 24-hrs! call me when u need me alright? xD and i'm so happy that u're coming my church soon! look forward to see you accepting Christ. hehe. xD train hard ok! we'll bring tk athletics to higher grounds! woot! xD jiayou jiayou!
haha. that was to my daughter. wahaha. we had so much to share just now. and she gave me her opinions and advices. and i gave her mine too. hehe. so.. that's about today. i guess.
nope. i dun wanna sink deeper into IT!
somebody pull me out! =X
not AGAIN.
why wun those feelings go away!
not a substitute i'm sure!
haix.
i need to run..
and run..
and run..
to God!
he will take control of the situation. x)
it's been two days..
since.. since..
nothing.
God loves you!
