Sunday, December 04, 2005
11:51 PM Y
ugly duckling
♥ just the girl.
i seriously have no idea why my title is that. haha. i suddenly feel that God wants me to read that book. this is the second time he spoke to my heart bout it. anybody has that book? hehe. cant seem to find my sisters' one. hahahax. x)
oh well, something happened again today. makes me feel so crap.. esp that person is someone who is close to me! haix. but i really thank God for He has always been wif me. x)
so today, went to church. was on duty but went to main service anyway cuz today had special speaker. ron bueno!! hehe. reached church bout 10am but surprised to see that chinese service have not ended. haha. after that, went to eat loh. den went for practice. kathy wasnt dere today cuz she hadta practise for konquerors. haha. so after worship in rzone, we made our way down to the promise. hmm the evangel news video was really nice. jerry was super funny!! pastor mong yee also. they make a cute couple. hehehe. xD so anyway, michelle sang a song which was really nice cuz she had a beautiful voice and den pastor ron shared. his message was bout saving souls. frankly, it wasnt really reviving. =X hadta ask my sis to pinch me to stay awake. =X *sorry God* hopefully konquerors would b more practical and reviving. x) hehe. so.. the things that happened after church was the highlight of today.
hmm heard that there was a meeting after service today so i stayed back. den cuz i needa to find pastor mong yee and tell her that me n zoe are able to get the drum set already, i went to level 4 wif my sis. but pastor was busy wif deck the halls practice. so zoe suggested mayb friday we talk to her. den after my sis g12 lesson ended, we went down to level 1 only to find out that everybody was gone already. and by everybody, i mean those reg A youths. called dennis and bernice and found out they were at north point. pangseh! haha. but nvm. den me and my sis go eat maggie. she left me wif two bowls of untouched cup noodles cuz she rushed up for meeting wif pastor quee beng. and when she arrived back down, i was aslp on the table already. haha. =X
she woke me up and told me she was going to north point to meet the rest for meeting. den i asked if i needed to go. she say since i not acting den dun need. so i nvr loh. den she, josh and samuel left for north point. i stayed awhile in church and was about to leave for home when wenyi came out frm the lift. she asked me where i going so i say home loh den she ask me take 854 together so i agreed. den sing tee and gerald came along also mah. we alighted at northpoint dere den gerald say he wanna eat first. so we three pei ta.. we went to the food court and guess who i saw dere?? josh and samuel! wif devon, tian feng, dixon they all. i was quite surprised. i asked them where was midori and they said they dunno. so i smsed her and ask if she went home already. den she said nope, she at north point wif the rest. so i said, " oh i'm dere too. wif wenyi josh they all. tot ur got meeting? oh well, nvm." den her reply was "we're at the photoshop dere." she din even mentioned anything bout the meeting. nor did she ask me to join them. so.. knowing i would b extra and knowing my presence wasnt welcomed, and knowing i wouldnt fit in, i decided not to go. just told her i'll b going home soon when in actually fact we stayed at the food court for quite some time. i only arrived home at 6pm liddat. she came back bout 15 min after me.
i dunno wat she was thinking and neither do i wanna noe.. forgive and forget bah. wat can i do rite? ppl dun welcome me den nvm loh. i still have God. x) hahax. and like i said, i dun fit in so why do i even try? i wanna hang out wif ppl who like me as who i m. i cant and dun wanna change the way i m. so yupx. that's ME! God made me SPECIAL IN HIS EYES! xD praise the LORD!!
and so.. here i m blogging.. know wat's nice? is that even tho so many bad things happen in one day, i nvr fail to smile for i noe God is always wif me. He will nvr leave me nor forsake me. even if the whole world looks down on me, God will always b dere. He is my LORD and SAVIOUR!! woohoo!! praise HIM!! xD
