Sunday, January 29, 2006
11:27 PM Y
happy chinese new year
♥ just the girl.
well. i know it's a little bit late to say this. but HAPPY CNY! haha. xD
i dunno wat to say. hmm. is dis considered a new beginning? i guess so. i hope to live my live right once again. x)
last thur's training totally rocked! we had 23 for attendance! even more than tues! xD
i really love the new sec one athletes! xD they're so hyper, full of energy and so chattery! woot!
wat i heard frm other ccas is that they din have so many ppl. e.g girl guides had 14 new recruits. =X and they weren't so talkative and crappy as ours! xD
the first time they came for training, they were already talking as if we've known each other a long time ago! it was really cool. xD
mayb bcuz i set the 'foundation' for them. HAHA. u know me, i'm crappy, sarcastic, lame.. well i guess it all means the same. but u know. haha!
i crapped the whole first training lah. and they crapped along wif me. and added that i was crappy. haha. but i'm glad they were already quite open on the first training.
and on the second training, which was a thur, they opened up even more. which made me feel so happy! xD but one thing i muz say, they just dunno when to keep quiet. HAHA.
everytime i wanna say something,i havta shout so many times before they can lend me their attention.woosh. but other than that, they're really great juniors. xD as for now.
on thur, we discussed on the designs for the track shirt and vest and all. and i told them some admin and non admin stuff. i'm quite happy they're enthu and all. it's really nice. xD and i hope they will keep dis up. x)
come to think of it again, i dun wanna leave tk already. x( frankly speaking, i hate tk. so many bad memories. of cuz, there are good ones too. but given a choice, i'll erase both good and bad memories den just keep the bad ones.
back to the point, yup. wo bu she de leave le. cuz now got the sec1s. sadded lah. why they only come in dis yr. so sad loh. argh.. x(
well. i guess i'll just havta cherish the time spent wif them and come back more often after i leave tk. x)
other than that, we'll soon enlarged our track family tree. when asked who wanna b wat, e.g. my grandson/granddaughter/daughter/son. blah blah. the sec1s were all so enthu! haha! so happy. xD will look even more forward to training now.
oh yes, there's dis guy called stefan. pronounced as stephen. he prefers ppl to call him step. but i rather call him stev-fun! u know, like in a french way. haha. so cool! xD and he's so noisy lah. haha. other than dunno when to keep quiet, i think he's very cute. and funny. xD
dun get it wrong ahh.. cute as in cute cute. not handsome cute. wahaha. just simply cute. xD HAHA! xP
oh yah. thur is also the day i acknowledged another di. xD one of my juniors. we same sirname summore. doubt anybody will know we're NOT siblings if they dunno us. hehe.
he very poor thing loh. father wants him out of track and go to soccer. but it's so unfair lah. track is his first cca loh. plus he signed the consent form! how can he do that. he was telling me dis prob, and that's how we became jie and di. i will do my very best to help him. x)
ok lah. that's bout it about my new track team. xD
tk is so kiasu lah. cant stand them loh. we had lessons on friday! can u believe it. when other schs like, RGS, AJC, all the good schs are left off at 10am. half day.and our sch, normal time loh! sickening.
we had lessons for the first half of the day den celebration at the end. it's so dumb lah can. den P CHAN say wat, oh cuz it's not the eve of new yr so we still have lessons for first half. wat crap loh..
now u all shld know why i'm so stressed out. so sickening loh my principal. cant even let us relax for ONE day. wat crap sch..
one thing dunno good or bad, that the sch caused me. it caused me to lose 2 kg in one week! wow rite. *jaws dropped?* hmm to me, it's good i guess, cuz i wanna lose weight. wahaha.
but bad thing is, joelle told me that my metabolism rate has went down, and once it goes up again, i eat a bit den will gain alot! AHHHH!! =X
everybody keeps saying i runner, wun fat de. but they're so wrong loh. =X ok ok i dun LOOK fat, but i'm heavy! =X so i needa lose weight. hehe. xD sch's gonna help me achieve that now. wahaha.
so anyway, took my eng test after sch on friday cuz missed it on wed. hmm.. hard loh the compre! die liaox. sian. who can teach me english! =X haix.
hmmm after that, nik's mum gave me a lift to kembangan mrt. later met up wif nik again. plus shuyi and we went to catch a movie. cheaper by the dozen 2! that show rocks loh! elliot is cute! xD hehe. muz watch!
after that i rushed to church le. was ABIT late. =X heh. the sharing was good as usual. convicting and reviving. SOULS! xD we muz win souls for the Lord's coming is near...
we had games after that. riddles and an impromtu drama which reg A did quite badly. haha. but it's ok. it's impromtu mah! cant expect much. xD
hmm sat was kinda sian. even tho i went shopping for my new yr stuff.. =X just no mood to shop loh. but i finally bought my nike shorts! woot! xD and three new tops and another shorts.
i realised that slowly, my wish list is getting shorter! xD i already got my drums! and my nike shorts! xD even tho i got a sling bag already, i dun really like it. =X want one for sports de. hehe. but PTL!! He gave me most of the things i wanted.
really wanna thank God for being wif me all these time. even when i lost the will. even when i lost the strength to carry on. even when i almost lost all hope in myself and in Him. He was dere. for ME.
He was dere when i needed him most. nobody knew wat i was going thru. the stress. the hurts. the pains. but He knows and He nvr left my side. those tears i cried at nite, he wiped it away for me. He knows. He hears. He cares. He LOVES. thank you Lord.
ok. that's about it. hmm dunno why but i keep getting scratches on my right leg. sian. ouch lah! and so awful now. haha! xP
hmm din do any visiting today. instead, watched tv, do some revision and slept today. first day of CNY and it's quite boring lah. din have much ang baos either. HAH! xP
well, i kinda lied. =X but since i said it, i gotta make sure it will no longer b a lie.
i'm sorry. to you know who you are. =X
the truth is, i'm still uncertain about the way i feel towards..... i just dunno howta b frank to you. afraid it will hurt ur feelings and knowing the consequences. so i lied. i'm sorry. but how i wish it wasnt a lie. really.
in any case, i really dun wanna get involved in the matters of the heart right now. i cant even cope wif my own studies now! where will i find the strength the handle the matters of the heart. haix. just.. let me go.. for now.. *God, set me free.. i need you..*
but i thank God for matthew. matthew sim. for the advices he gave me. they were really useful. and i'll work on it. thanks matthew! xD
well, i'm gonna dedicate a song to all piggs out dere. i know who are those i'm refering to. so it's ok if u dun. xD
BECAUSE OF YOU - KELLY CLARKSON
i will not make the same mistakes that you did, no..
i will not let myself
cause my heart so much misery
i will not break the way you did,
you fell so hard
i've learnt the hard way
to never let it get that far
because of you
i never strayed too far frm the side walk
because of you
i learnt to play on the safe side so i dun get HURT
because of you
i find it hard to trust not only me
but everyone around me
because of you
i am AFRAID
i lose my way
and it's not too long before you pointed out
i cannot cry
because i know that's weakness in your eyes
i'm forced to fake
a smile, a laugh, everyday of my life
my heart cant possibly break
when it wasnt even whole to start with
because of you
i never strayed too far frm the sidewalk
because of you
i've learnt to play on the safe side so i dun get hurt
because of you
i find it hard to trust not only me but everyone around me
because of you
i am AFRAID
i watched you die
i heard you cry every night in your sleep
i was so young
you shld have know better than to lean on me
you never thought of anyone else
you just saw your pain
and now i cry in the middle of the night
for the same damn thing!
because of you
i never strayed too far frm the side walk
because of you
i've learnt to play on the safe side so i dun get hurt
because of you
i try my hardest just to forget everything
because of you
i DUNNO HOW TO LET ANYONE ELSE IN
because of you
i'm ashamed of my life
because it's empty
because of you
i am AFRAID
because of you
because of you
well. i guess that sumarises everything. frm my previous love life tilla few of the reasons why i wun get into any relationships too soon. heh. this song rocks btw!! xD
all i wanna say is, TRUST GOD! for He will bring you thru! xD
GOD LOVES YOU! xD
