Sunday, January 15, 2006
10:08 PM Y
the reason. xD
♥ just the girl.
woot. feeling so happy. cuz i finally realised why i used to feel so left out and all that isolation stuff! xD
i remember once yireng shared at g12 that if we faced problems, it's for a reason. she gave the example of pimple out break. =X it is so that next time when we meet ppl like that, we'll know how they feel and comfort them. xD
same goes for me now! i finally realised why! why i always feel left out last time, like nobody cares and all that. and when i will isolate myself. i finally understand!! just recently on friday! xD
so, i'm beginning to open up and stuff. and i think that's great. xD
and friday, i looked around me and saw that, i wasnt the only one who used to feel left out and stuff. i realised that aik khim and daniel like nvr talk much. den like always isolated.
so i decided to sit wif aik khim on the bus. talked to him and glad he talked quite abit too. xD
den i saw daniel, and he was alone. quietly sitting by himself next to the window. suddenly, i feel that God was speaking to my heart to go talk to him.
i argued that i din have anything to say to him. but God assured me he'll tell me wat to say. and so, i went over to talk to him. and we talked quite abit too! xD i'm so happy. hehe.
and den i looked around again. and i saw nic was alone too. so decided to go talk to him also. he sounded so angry so din dare talk much. =X *SMILE NIC! xD*
hmm i guess he kinda cheered up a little. rina came over and the three of us talked. xD
YEA! i finally know the reason why i used to feel left out. and i finally found my purpose. that is to cheer ppl up! xD
i know how is it like to feel left out and being isolated. and so, i dun wan anybody to feel the same way as me! cuz the feeling is not nice. REALLY.
so, my purpose is to make ppl NOT feel left out! or isolate themselves! my task is to go talk to ppl who feel alone or who ARE alone! i'll b there! xD
woot. feel so happy after finding wat God is using me for. xD and i really hope ppl around me will b happy too. and to those who dunno the Lord, get to know HIM! for in HIM, u'll find JOY! xD
hehe. and even tho wif all the stress and all, i've learnt to cope, by the grace of God. xD i dun feel as depressed as before. in fact, i'm still as CRAZY as eveR! xD
and sat. even tho i faced a 'setback', i wasnt THAT affected. xD
ok this was wat happened. i had lesson in the morning so hadta reach sch at 7.30am. it's insane one lah. my sch *TK* KIASU. =X
yah. and it ended at 9.30am. 4D also had lesson. ended bout same time as us. den i went to help peck ki wif her phy hw. sitting at the benches behind the lib dere. den i saw nik and shan and clarisse and tara walked past.
i shouted out nik's name and they stopped to wave at me. i totally din see piggy. but peck saw lah. i was just asking nik where they were going and they said kallang mac.
and under normal circumstances, she would ask me where i was going too and whether i would like to join them. but nope. instead, she and shan was discussing sth.
i think my guess is right. at first i din see piggy so i tot they were just talking bout sth else. but when i saw him *cuz one of them shouted his name and asked him to hurry cuz he was talking to peishan, den i saw him* i figured that they were discussing whether to ask me along. =X
they must have tot it'll b awkward for both of us. after wat has happened. but they prob din noe that i'm over him. xD and so they left loh. haha.
oh well. the bus ride home was a thinking one tho. i was thinking, if they had asked me to go, would i go? and i can definitely say, no. i wouldnt join them. so extra. haha!
i also tot of many other things. how things would turn out if everything else din happened. and if only i studied hard enuf for my sci, i would have gone to the same class as them and prob leading a better life in 4D. but oh well.. 4G's not so bad i guess. haha!
at the end of the day, i still found myself smiling! xD
went for heart.sports later on that day. met bernice, kenneth and micheal on the way dere. was LATE. thanks to *AHEM*. haha! xP
and i'm aching all over now! thanks to super poison ball. haha! cuz muz throw ball wif one hand mah. den now my right hand aching insanely. OUCH! =X haha.
and u need lots of stamina loh! was SHAGGED by the time the 6 mins was over. and out of the 6 games, i only survived 2 of them. =X pathetic lah. muz jiayou next time! xD
woohoo! GO GO GO DOLPHINS! xD reg A rocks!! hehe.
guitar lesson tmr..
muz jiayou in my music le.
it's hard to learn i muz admit.
both guitar and drums.
but.. i WONT GIVE UP!
jiayou VIR! xD
GOD BLESS ALL! xD
