Saturday, May 06, 2006
12:30 AM Y
I'M BACK. : )
♥ just the girl.
well well well.. i'm back to blog! after so so so long.. hahax! worst, i'm in the midst of my mid yrs right now! wat a RIGHT time to use the com eh? heh. xDhmm so many things happened lately. both good and bad. aint feeling too good right now. but watever. haix. dunno wat to say or even where to start saying from. things have just been COMPLICATED.
sick of life. sick of studying. sick of getting hurt over and over again. sick of being an idiot all the while. sick of having to put up wif such crap. *only by the grace of God can i pull thru*
pastor lim actually talked bout my mum that day. in front of the whole congregation! but thank God he din mentioned her name. i found the situation so similar to wat was happening to my family. but i never tot it WAS talking bout my family. i almost cried upon hearing it. =X oh well.. trusting and trusting..
well, as i said, i'm in the midst of my exams right now. so totally gonna flunk this mid yr. as in SERIOUSLY. i nvr felt so sure about doing badly before. haix. disappointment. and one thing i found out. my time management sux! i can finish my papers for nuts! argh.. so sickening.. =X
plus.. i'm a bit distracted i must say. =X not focus AT ALL. that is so so so wrong. haixx.
it came at the wrong time. i tot it would prove me wrong. but it proved me right instead. i'm hurt. quite abit. but it's the first time. insecurities. so loved yet so unloved. so near yet so far. i was never right about anything.
i woke up and realised it was just a dream. in that dream, i was in a fairytale story. so it was a fantasy in a dream. cinderella? mayb. all i know is the clock struck 12 midnight on the 5th of May. it's OVER.
dunno wat i'm talking bout? HAHA. u were not supposed to know anyway. wahaha. madness rite? yea. i admit. i was never in the right state of mind. i'm INSANE. hahax! xD
well, i guess it's back to reality. sometimes it's better to keep away frm things u use to think was never good. i've learnt my lesson. dun make the same mistake as me. : ) heh.
study study study girl!
FOCUS! xD
JIAYOU TO ALL!
exams will b over in no time. x)
CHEERS!
