Saturday, August 19, 2006
10:05 PM Y
♥ just the girl.
heya. =]
dint managed to blog yest due to my complaining sis. she grumbled again today. but dont care her liao loh. who ask her put the comp in her room. hmph.
so anyway, i had my eng Olevel yest. was hyper ventilating while waiting for my turn lah can. HAHA. my examiner both guys loh. and my group only got 2 girls. like wat the crap.
but my examiners both very funny. one fat fat de. like a huge teddy bear! so cute. hehe. the other, sad to say, act and talk like sissy. =X but i think they both very nice loh. haha. =]
anyway, i think i kinda flunk it loh. O level leh! AHH! cuz for picture discussion, i mentioned bout sth that the examiner dint even see! it was a unnoticable detail. SHUCKS! =[
and for conversation, it's bout frenship de. and i kept repeating the same points loh. it's like i had alot to say. but my mind just want blank. boohoo.
sigh. wat's over is over loh. guess i better work harder for the written paper. i CANNOT fail compre again man. haha. sian sian.
hmm. we went to visit mel after that. she kena dengue loh. sigh. poor thing. i'll forget bout the past and pray for her ba. =] if i can forgive bokie, i can forgive mel too. =]
her hse is big loh. and like jungle liddat. =X got so many plants and trees and a pond. no wonder breed mosquitoes. =X and i saw the HUGE BEE lah can. was freaked out man. haha.
and den me, elaine and patricia got bitten by a mosquito! den we got all paranoid. haha. super funny leh. den mel's grandma gave us chicken pies and char siew pau to eat. haha. =]
hmm. we left at bout 6.15 den walked to the mee sua stall dere to makan. i introduced them to it de. hehe. =]
den, i somehow got pissed off by the slowness of the guys. they so indecisive lah can. in the end, i went to order for the girls only. the guys also dont wanna eat mah. not my prob. wahaha.
and when the mee sua came, ivan actually ate abit of mine lah. like wat the crap. =X i kinda got pissed off and kept saying how sickening he was. bleah.
ok. GREAT. i was a little late for HOF. =X took cab down loh. cuz they eat so slow. =X wahaha. actually, all of them were asking me not to go just this once. but i know i cant give in. thank God i won S.A tan. hehe. =]
hmm. yest msg was by pastor chui. and it came at the right time loh. FRESH FAITH. i think i do need to refresh my faith in God. and ONLY in God. noone else. Man will fail me, time and time again. no offence. we're all humans. dun have faith in me too. i will fail u as well bcuz i'm IMPERFECT.
so yea. msg was GOOD. went home after that. i was abit high and all due to the oral that day. haha. i'm liddat de loh. =]
hmm used the com when i reached home. dint blog lah. but talked to ivan. cant believe i told him so much. and he gave me feedbacks bout my character too.
he said i've changed. i've become someone who is hot tempered, ah-lianish. my studies are dropping and i'm dozing off in class more.
and actually, i agree wif him. i feel that i've changed too. and he was quite concerned as a fren lah. so he asked me wat's wrong and all. wat caused the change in me. and hmm. guess when i realy go think bout it, i finally came up an answer for myself.
i think it's because i try so hard to keep everything. and pretend everything's going so well, so good. and wat i dunno is, i'm trying TOO hard. and when i do that, i change. i change into a person i dun even know.
and when ivan tell me how bad i've changed, i feel disgusted by my 'new' character. this is definitely not me. i promise ill get the old virnice back. i really promise.* sigh.
actually, i really dunno wat i shld do to find the old me back. i really hate myself lah can. =[ sigh. can old virnice PLEASE come back. tell me wat i shld do. i guess i'll havta control my temper more. and act more decent. and not act cool like ah lian. sigh. =[
ohhman. sad post again. cannot cannot. ppl who reads my blog must finish reading wif a smile ok. =] i assure u i'll b back! and i'll b stronger. i'll read the bible and pray everyday! =]
i'll b a stronger girl. someone who is able to handle her problems well and b optimistic. someone who wont dwell on the past and move on wif life easily. =]
and that's y, i need God and u, my dear frens. =] we'll encourage each other alright. and i just wanna say i'm thankful to all of u who have done sth in my life. even if it's just a THOUGHT to help me, it's good enuf for me. at least i know u care. =]
and to ivan, thanks for trying to help. =] u've helped me gain back a bit of confidence already. remember to keep me awake in class ya. =] and we'll motivate each other to study! haha. A1 for chi yea! and A1 for the rest of the subjects! go ivan! xD
i think i shall go plan out my new resoultion. whee. =]
anyway, today's the usual. except that i went for my hospital appointment dis morning. haha. =]
hmm. i almost cried at CGH today. well, just thinking of all the medical probs i have is killing me lah can. ankle prob, fractured toe, bone growing behind the ear, wat's next? i dun even dare think. i'm so boney loh. =[
good news is my fractured toe has kinda healed. as in a new bone has grown to cover the fracture. but still can see the line. so means still cant jump or do intesive running. cant believe i still played netball yest. hehehe. =X
den my ankle, the doc did a scan on the spot. found out that it was a crack and he said i was born wif it. and when i sprained it, the tendon got stretched or sth liddat. and so, there's NO way to heal it. only can strengthen the tendon.
so, i havta go for physiotheraphy lah can. like wat the?!! AHH crap. damn sian. haha. and after three months, i can train again! and when i do, if the ankle still hurts or sth, i'll havta wear an insole. sigh. so much probs. and money also involved. sian. sian. sian. =[
ohhyes. the doc said it was a stress fracture so HIGH possibility that i can b fractured again. like WOW right. how nice. good job vir. sigh. =[
so yea. i almost cried. cuz my mum was making such a big fuss when i refused to take x ray for my ankle. she doesnt know how i feel. i'm scared. ='[ sports is my passion. if i have to give it up, it'll b a big blow to me. and i dun think i can give it up. it's wat i LOVE. u cant just take that away frm me. =[
yes, i've got drumming now. but sports is still my FIRST love. *we're talking bout NON-living things right now.* sigh. it's impossible for me to give it up. no way. easier for u guys to say. but harder for me to do. sorry. =[
hmm. wat a thing to start my day off. ohh well. hmm. rushed to a math lesson after that. was like 1 and a half hour late. HAHA. =X but mr foo knows lah. it was in the audi and funny thing was, mr foo dint even know when i went in. haha! xD
after that, we went to eat fei fei! HEHE. somemore is yeokfei suggest de loh. i used to alwas suggest to eat that. it's my favourite WANTON MEE! xD whee! haha.
my mum den gave all of them a lift to eunos mrt den i went to church for my drumming lesson. we learnt one way and touching heaven changing earth! challenging song loh. must practise very hard. =]
hmm came home after that den slpt for awhile cuz was super tired. den i went to watch HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL! haha. it was shown on disney channel. woohoo.
i finally managed to watch the whole show loh. i always miss the first part. dunno why also. haha! so i watched the whole thing today! woo! got a sense of achievement. hehe. the movie is so nice lah can! their voices so nice and sweet. haha.
i want my bf to b someone who can sing next time. hehe. so sweet loh. to sing duet. hehehe. xD MY HEAD AHH! right? someone's gonna tell me that. HAHAHA.
yes lah! i think so much loh. HAHA. =]
ohhwell. that's all for today. my sis gonna complain again soon if i dont stop using the comp. wahaha. night den. =]
takecare to all.
