Thursday, August 10, 2006
3:40 AM Y
LIFE
♥ just the girl.
LIFE.
i've been busy lately. and guess when i sit down and think, tots usually come into my mind. the reality of life scares me alot actually. in that environment, it's really hard not to change but i'll try.
well, been a fool lately. made a wrong decision. one that i will regret my entire life. but wat's done is done and there's nth i can do bout it. i have to get over it.
and i know it's there. it was always there. but somebody came into the picture and ruined everything.
i wonder how's things now. but i'm not gonna interfere. leave it to them to fight it out. i willingly step out. because i know i shldnt b there in the first place. i lost my chance already. it's too late now.
i'm trying hard to keep up the pretence. is that a sin? wat pretence, nobody knows and nobody SHLD know.
my life's in a mess. i'm not getting my priorities right. studies and everything else aside. and i hope i'm not drafting away frm my creator. i still love to worship Him wif all of my heart.
temptations. problems. distractions. hurts. difficulties.
those are wat's making me go weaker and weaker each day.
tired of those tears. tired of those slpless nites. tired of those stupid eyebags. tired of trying to find excuses. tired of escaping frm reality. tried of living. want to b wif God soon. when will he take me up to a better and more beautiful place.
i'm exhausted. need strength frm God to carry on.
at the end of the day, i'm fine. =] happy. moving on. =]
*zhi ke yi zai pang bian jing jing de kan zhe ni. yin wei ni bu shu yu wo de er qie yong yuan tou bu hui. zhe me hui xi huan shang ni ne. dui ni ta gan jue shi cong yi qian jiu you le. ke shi wo xian zai cai fa xian, yi jing tai chi le. ru guo neng hui dao guo qu jiu hao le. dan quan dou mei you le. ni shi shu yu ta men de le. zhu ni yong yuan xing fu kuai le.
this isnt the ending i prayed for.
but nevertheless, it should b good. =]
always look on the bright side of LIFE.
He's always there, He promise. =]
