Saturday, August 26, 2006
10:59 AM Y
♥ just the girl.
wow.
it's been 3 days since i last blogged. hmm. been busy wif wat, i also dunno. haha. xP
anyway, life's ok i guess. =]
wed G12 msg was somewat aiming at me. dont know is my sis told yireng sth or it's just *GOD KNOWS. well, i dontknow loh. and i dont wanna know the truth. the truth ALWAYS hurts. some things are better left unknown.
anyway, yea. the msg was sth like, dont put on a front. dont try to act as if u're ok when u're not. humble urself and bring ur probs before God. and yea, i was tocuhed by the msg. it did help. thank God bah.
and btw, did i mentioned that yireng kept staring at me as she talked? hmm. dontknow wat that means.
so ya. and oh yess! i forgot to mention that i also went shopping on wed. yes SHOPPING! heh. xD shopping always make me feel better lah can! but later.. heart pain. haha. cuz pocket empty. boohoo. =[ hahaha.
anyway, the plan was just to follow ppk go parkway and make her ocbc card. weirdly, she has an acc but NO atm card. weird rite? haha. so yea.. and her dad went too. cuz we tot need parents to sign or sth. in the end no need. den i think he got a little pissed? i dontknow. haha.
den, we intended to drink bubble tea and walk walk around in parkway. but well, it turned out to b... a SHOPPING TIME for us! haha. all thanks to samuel and kelvin which was having a sale! it caught our eyes lah. UP TO 70% DISCOUNT. wat the loh! so we went in and SHOPPED! tried on shirts and jeans. heh.
hmm. we ended up spending $36 dere. den we went to ice lemmon tea and bought some stuff too. and we just keep NETSING it lah can. swipe swipe swipe! damn shuang lah can. but after that i was so worried my acc no money. but.. phew.. hai hao lah. cuz my mum just deposited my allowance into my acc. haha. =]
so yea, damn shuang loh. and so happy. felt so good.. but it's all only temporal.... hmm.
yupp yupp yupp. thur, hmm.. nth much ba.. cant remember wat happened also.. STML mah. heh.
den yest.. we went to marina square! got anne's roxy wallet. and we walked ALOT. and i mean ALOT. like siao loh. somemore it was a last min plan. so.. we werent really prepared. and so.. we had SUPER ALOT OF BOOKS. end of the week mah. plus prelims coming. so we had to bring ALL our books home for revision. sickening. my shoulder was like gonna break lah can. haha. but we still had fun. xD
we went to far east after that. had fried mars bars! fattening loh can. =X haha. but well, once in a while mah. hehe.den we SHOPPED again! but dis time not so much loh. and it's for our grad nite things anyway. we're all so excited bout grad nite! woohoo! xD
well, i bought a shirt.. and ya.. that's it i guess. whee... xD
den at nite, went to church for H.O.F. the msg that day, was told thru a story. it was so sad lah can. how someone's life can get so messed up. yet at the same time, it shows us how merciful God is and how much He loves us. =] i was definitely touched by the msg. =]
and as pastor dale continue to speak. somehow, tears began to flow.. just kept falling.. no matter how hard i tried to stop it.. why everything he said is so similar to the situation i am in now.. i dontknow wat's going on but i just started shaking.. but i know He's just next to me.. holding me tight..
and sigh..
pastor dale said sth like.. dont act as if u're fine when u're not.. and some ppl lead a double life.. but we can ask God to change us.. mayb some ppl go SHOPPING just to make themselves feel better.... and other stuff. but i cant really remember.. those mentioned above are the ones that spoke to me..
den it was altar call..
it was...... i dontknow how to say.. but i knelt down before Him and started crying.. crying so badly that no one can imagined.. den pastor mong yee came beside me and started praying for me.. no words came out from her.. she just kept speaking in tongues.. and i know she was crying too.. i think she could hardly say anything due to that fact. so she just spoke in tongues. but it was good enuf.
His presence was just so strong.. and my tears just kept falling.. pastor MY put her hands around my shoulder. and as i cried even harder, she help me close to her. so close and so tight. pastor dale did mentioned that they act as channels. so yea, if u look at it in another way, He was holding me close to Him. and i just couldnt stop crying...
so yea.. wat a night.. but it was great. the msg was really great and it came at the right time. i felt good after everything. and i've decided i will change for the better because He lives and He loves me. =]
no more two face. no more pretence. i will stop trying to be someone else but me.. i'm so happy. i'm beginning to feel His joy.. His peace.. and i feel good. tada tada da.. xD
and so.. good morning. =] it's a sat and i'm feeling great. xD got drumming later and gonna meet up wif ppk after that to go study for our prelims after looking for our prom shoes. xD heh.
talking bout prelims, our first paper iso n this coming WED! can u believe it?! WED! so FAST! and i'm starting to panick lah can. so NOT prepared. boohoo. God help me... but first i must help myself by studying.. sian. *God helps those who help themselves. if i dont do anything, there's nth he can do either. so... must study.. sian..
well, that's all for today.. it's now 11.26AM. and i'm off..
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