Saturday, September 02, 2006
12:33 AM Y
♥ just the girl.
crapp. i'm feeling the way i used to feel again. left out. ignored and everything else that sux. ohh my. i hate this feeling.
sigh. dont know how to get rid of it. i mean, i've tried. to b more sociable. talk more. but i'm just seemed to b ignored. to the extent that i decided to shutup. crapp. sigh.
so sick of it already ahh. she and they only come to me as and when they like it. i'm not interested to know loh. sigh.
xuanie, i think u're right. i'm too nice le. =X and too gullible. sigh.
ppl say i've changed. but deep within me, i dont think i have. it's only on the outside. just cuz everything is hidden. ohh man. dis is so sickening can. sigh.
guess i shldnt talk bout it le. dont want ppl to make comments about it. sigh. and sian.
countdown to my bday : 8 days.
countdown to prelim : 9 DAYS!
cant even enjoy my sweet sixteen lah can. sian lah. wat a lousy yr for me. =[ sadded loh.
anyway. i think i know who angel is le. JIE! TELL ME IT'S YOU! I KNOW IT IS. =[ sigh. ur acting abit not real loh. the way u 'HUH?' at me. sigh.
so hurtful man. and this another girl..
i know sth u did. but i dont dare confront u. but i've been drifting away frm u if u notice. and i havent been telling u much. and i think u also realised that. but.. yea. that's just the way it is. u made urself untrustable. i cant believe u actually did that. it's so disappointing.. sigh.. ='[
ohh well. i've learnt to let go loh. part of life. these hurts just come and go. some leave a deeper wound but all ends up to a scar. i think i'm scarred for life. if i wana forget it, i just i gotta NOT look at those scars ba.
sigh. alright. let's move on.
umm. i really want to have a child-like faith man. =]
and YAY! i changed my blogskin again! haha. LOVE this one man! xD hehe.
and yea.. went for physio today. must balance wif one leg and wif ur eyes closed! wat the crapp loh. haha.
so lame loh. i felt like an idiot can. standing on a trampoline, trying to balance wif my eyes close. moving and shaking like crazy. siao one. haha. xP
still got another lame exercises. and the physiotherapist teach me how to tape my ankle le. means i can do sports already! YAY! AMEN! xD
ohh man. i think the only thing that can make me happy now is SPORTS! YES! haha.
but.. prelims is around the corner. =[ and..
status : UNPREPARED!
sian. must go mug le. =[ boohoo lah.
ohh. and i'm so glad anne loved her presents! YAY! i feel so happy. i've done my part as her MUM! YAY! haha. i'm a successful mother! haha. wat the crapp sia.
die liaox. high again le. wahaha.
and ohh ohh. i went back to tns on thur. wif xuanie and shar and ivie and wenjie. but crapp. i was late cuz went to eat lunch wif anne they all to celebrate her bday. i felt so bad toward xuanie tho. =X made her wait. and she was so angry wif me. but u know, "ANGRY". yes she was. heh. =]
and guess wat?! many of my pri sch frens REMEMBER ME! YAY! YAY! DOUBLE YAY! i was so high that day lah can. so so so happy.
nigel waved to me! while i was walking wif xuanie to the canteen.
and chin kai recognise me! we were outside the staff room and he came frm dunno where. den we kinda like stare at each other. i was thinking to myself *is that chin kai or his brother. cuz i know he got two brothers loh. TWINS somemore! haha. my memory not bad ok. xD
and den, we stopped walking and talked. and i was like, YOU'RE CHIN KAI RIGHT?!!
*at that time he was already pointing at me. trying to recall my name. haha.
"yea, u are... umm.. start wif V de right.."
den i was like "YA YA!"
and den he finally managed to say, "VIRNICE!"
WOOHOO! i'm so happy lah can. haha. it just feels good to b remembered. heh.
and when i think back of all the good old pri sch days i had, i really miss it. =]
and so, we continued to talk. bout our studies. which jc we going to. and all. haha. ohh ya. he also mentioned that he saw me on X-country that day and he waved at me somemore. but i just cant remember. =X SORRY CHIN KAI!
and YES! AUSTIN REMEMBERS ME TOO!
and no. not austin POWERS. but AUSTIN TAY ZIJING!
YAY! haha. another rememberer of VIRNICE! WOOHOO!
HAHA. i'm so crazy man. i called out to him frm the hall. and he turned, gave me that SUPER DUPER BLUR look. den he waved back. haha. i wrote him a testimonial that day, asking if he remembered me and all. and he said YES! haha! YAY! xD
elton also remember me! cuz we all sat down and chatted abit. den he was like, "you're virnice right?" den iwas like, "YES YES." YAY! haha!
ok ok. i need to calm down. *breathe in breathe out. breathe in breathe out. HAH!
and ohh. did i mention that i had the experience of a lifetime on wed? i was drenched THREE times IN A ROW! but yea. i ENJOYED it, believed it or not. FUNNESS! YAY! hehe. xD
first we wanted to give anne a book of memories. with our photos and all. so we had to get it develop. we went to parkway to eat and i came out wif a reason to leave the food court while the eat -- to buy bubble tea for them.
so i ran all the way to the photo shop den submitted the photos to b developed and den went to buy the BT. little did i know it was raining CATS AND DOGS. or mayb ELEPHANTS..? YES, that was how HEAVY the rain was. haha.
dontknow why but i think think think den still decided to go buy. so i foolishly ran out into the HEAVY rain and buy it. and later, rachel FOOLISHLY came to help me wi fthe drinks. so we both were FOOLISHLY and SUPERLY wet. HAH! but *thanks bokie! appreciate it. =]
so yea. we were the centre of attraction back at parkway. wahaha. and the rest were so touched when they saw us so wet and know that we ran out into the rain just ot buy for them the BT. but still, they said i was stupid! hmph! haha. i was BLURLY stupid. wheehee. just wanted to do sth for u guys mah. =]
but guess wat? in the end, ALL of us were wet. cuz we hadta go back to sch for MS YAP lesson. and the taxi queue was super long. *it's always liddat on rainy days. irritating.* and so, we ran all the way tot he 16 bus stop. any idea how far is that? hmm. all i know is NO SHELTER! crapp.
haha. we held hands and SCERAMED as we ran along. my gosh. but thank GOD, 16 came as soon as we reached the bus stop. and yupp, we walked out the bus dripping water everywhere. cant imagine how pissed the driver was. HAH! =X
and den.. we were all freezing lah can! haha. so i decided to keep everyone's mind occupied byt taking PICTURES! YAY! the WET GIRLS! WHOOHOO! haha. xD
wat a day. and guess wat. after geog, it rained AGAIN. drizzling actually. den we went back to parkway cuz had to take the developed photos. and me, elaine, patricia and ppk had dinner there. when we wanted to leave, it started POURING. and yes, AGAIN!
we had to go home u see. and i had G12. and SO. we ran in the rain AGAIN! HAHA! goodness me! but this time, the dist wasnt so long. just to the overhead bridge. but sth scary happened on the way.
when walking on the overhead bridge, ppk suddenly found out that she lost her hp! we started running frantically and back trekked. elaine and patricia went the the bottom of the escalator there to look for it while me and ppk crossed the road back to parkway. actually only ppk did. i stayed in the MIDDLE of the roads. it was muddy and all. yikes
soon, i heard elaine calling out to me. and they found her phone! i started calling out for ppk but she was nowhere. so i got ready to run back to parkway. but just then, she appeared again. and i shouted over to her that her hp was found.
den elaine and patricia told us that an indian man found it and was looking at it when they saw it. it was actually right in front of them but they dint see it. den afraid he would keep it or sth, they faster go out to him, say "it's mine it's mine!", took the phone and faster walk away. haha. abit rude lah. but better to b save den sorry.
it wa a really exciting day man! shld have seen ppk so worried and all. i was abit to cry too. =X dont know why also. haha. cuz ppk so sad loh. den like wanna cry liao. deni guess i also feel wif her. hehe. xD
so yea. wat a week. and know wat?
i need to study for my prelims!
BOOHOO. ='[
so i guess i'll blog another time.
and update the photos as well. now dont have my camera wif me. lent it to my HUBBY - JIAMIN! hehe.
alrighty.
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