Friday, September 08, 2006
1:58 AM Y
♥ just the girl.
hmm.
i dont know wat i am doing here at this hour. cant slp. and dont know why. sigh.
totally din eat pastor's lim bbq chicken wings and pastor marion's popiah yest. pastor's wings are the best! yet i missed it. and we only get to eat that once a yr.
dont know why. just no appetitite. dont know why. dont know why.
and yes. cried at church yest too. but nobody knows. nobody saw. ice and shimin just asked if i was ok. and ber just gave me a bowl of red bean soup which i totally din eat. sigh.
and if u ask me why. why did i cry. wat's wrong wif me. here's my answer to you..
I DONT KNOW WHY! AND WAT'S WRONG!
sigh. i wish i could tell someone wat's wrong but i just cant cuz i dont know wat's wrong! this is even worst den having probs on ur mind. sigh.
just looking at all the geog notes makes me scared. i tried to study. i REALLY REALLY tried! but nth seems to get into my head! sigh!
and yest nite. during alter call, i cried at my seat too. i think nelwyn saw cuz he asked me why i cry. i just smiled and said, : did i? sigh.
i know He's there. i know ii know. but how do u get rid of this i also dunno wat feeling inside me! AHH! help...! sigh lah sigh.
HOW HOW HOW?! i also dont know lah! =[
countdown to prelims : 3 days!
status : TOTALLY UNPREPARED! AHH!
sigh. and countdown to my bday : 2 days.
every year, i'll b so excited when nearing my bday. but dis yr, i'm so not looking forward to it. know why? cuz next day prelims!! ='[ i'm so sad lah can. and there's nth anyone of u can do. sigh.
this bday, i'm not expecting anything. no surprises. no presents. no nth. cuz everyone would b studying. and i dont blame anyone for that.
anyway, just want u guys to know, DO NOT, i repeat, DO NOT get any presents for me. there's simply too much in order to satisfy my wants/needs.
actually, every year, all i want frm u guys is just a simple "happy birthday". i'm serious. not trying to act humble or wat. of couse, presents are great. but to me, it's the thot that counts and that's wat really matters to me. if u guys remember my bday, good enuf. =] i'm super duper happy already. dont bother wasting money. use it on sth more meaningful ya. =]
i just hope u guys will remember me. =] and i guess that's the only thing i can expect frm my bday dis yr. just the best wishes is good enuf for me. =]
umm btw, not being mean or anything. but if anyone of u still think i'm being a hypocrite or sth. den go ahead. cuz nth i say will make u believe i'm saying the truth. but umm. this is wat i havta say, : if u JUDGE ppl, u have no time to LOVE them. so yupp.
hmm. i figured sth out. and i remember in the show 'wat a girl wants', oliver james [*CUTE!] said to amanda bynes, "there's sth i still dont get. why are you trying to fit in when you're born to stand out?"
aww. so sweet rite. but i figured that i'm sick and tired of trying to fit in cuz i'm just being ignored and neither m i born to stand out. so where do i stand? sigh. dont wanna go think already. mayb this is one of the 'things' i'm thinking bout and that is causing me so much fan nao. sian.
sigh. guess i better get back to studying. i better get sth into my head or i'm so dead. sigh.
lastly, just wanna say all the best to those who are also studying for their prelims right now. guess mayb i'm not the only one who is feeling this way. so ya.
JIAYOU everyone! sescond last stretch already! let's do it! GOGOGO! xD
TAKECARE ;
*wo zhi xi wang ta hui ji de. bu zhi ta. hai you ta, ta he you she ta. na ying kai hui rang wo de shen ri bian de geng you yi yi ba. wo zhi xi wang..
