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Thursday, January 18, 2007

10:59 PM Y

♥ just the girl.

hello.

well, things aren't exactly going well. but i'm just trying hard to keep a postive attitude.

sigh.
just dont know how much longer i can hold before i collapse.

i know i must look to God for strength. but sometimes, i dont even have the strength to look to Him for strength. =[

and i did the same old thing AGAIN.

vented my stress on the SAME person. and again, the person dint even realised i wasn't normal. she still say i kpkb. it's kinda crude so i dont wanna spell that out. SIGH. =[

and the same EFFECTS took place. cried after i shouted at her thru SMS. in sch somemore. thank God i was alone. sigh.='[

this post is gonna b just as depressing. so i advice my faithful readers not to continue reading. sigh.

well, sch got WORST two days ago. cuz that's when i got my permanent timetable. it's gonna b this way till after 1st 3 months.

now, let me share wif you my WONDERFUL timetable.

well, it's bad enuf that training is 3 times a week : monday, wednesday and friday. but guess wat. i have PE on tue and thur.

and ajc's PE is SICKENING. they make u run and run and do stupid drills that will make u look like a MAN sooner or later cuz it's building up all the muscles. totally SICK.

so imagine that. i'm running 5 times a week.

but hold on. i got into the netball selection. WOW. i really thank God cuz only a few girls got selected.

but u and i know, it's IMPOSSIBLE to have two SPORTS cca. i simply cannot cope. even if it's just 1st 3 months.

so anyway, netball trains on monday wednesday and saturday. which means i cant go on monday and wednesday cuz i already got track training.

so, they asked me to go on sat. and mayb i'll just join for recreational and not sch team. but hey, dont think i need that extra recreational activity since ajc PE is SO fun. HA HA.

to summarise wat i just said, i end training at 7 plus, close to 8 on mon, wed and fri. but cuz wed got g12 and fri got hof, i'll b home like 10 plus. mon i'll b home at 9 liddat.

and on tue, i'll b home and 6plus, which is NOT considered EARLY.and on thur, i'll b home at 7 plus.

on top of that, i have piles of HOMEWORK, lots of PROJECTS and that means, LESSER SLEEP. because i still havta wake up at 5 plus in the morning no matter how late i sleep. how nice.

ok. let's just put distance aside how bout everything else? the sch is plain kiasu lah. and asking too much of us. sigh.

fine. i've brought this upon myself and i've got no one to blame.

so go ahead. scold me. slap me. do watever. i deserve it. sigh.

i've still got church and work commitments to think about. sigh.

ohh yes, i think the only thing good about ajc is the teachers there are not bad. SOME only. but my fav math teacher is leaving! and he only gave us 3 math lectures! sad. =[

and on second thots, i really hate doing projects. so mayb poly isnt suitable for me.

so since both jc and poly dont suit me, i shld just drop out man. sigh.

winston will b going overseas to study already. and so is shan..

how i wish i could too. mayb my status will b much much lower in other countries and mayb i'm at a disadvantage, i dont really care. i just really need to get away from here, from spore!

STUPID EDUCATIONAL SYSTEM!

I WANT TO GO OVERSEAS AND STUDY!!

AH HO KOR KOR! AH POH KOR KOR! PLEASE BRING ME TO AUSTRALIA SOON! I CANT WAIT TO SEE AND FEEL SNOW AS WELL!

sigh. please, do keep me a prayer. even just a very short one will do. i need it.

thanks so much you guys.
esp laoda. for trying to help me distress and all.

remember to make me laugh whenever u can. i really need it. =]

and rebecca's coming to hof tmr nite! cant wait! quite excited. =] hope she'll stay.

so anyway, i need to do work already.

*trying to stay alive. trying.. trying.. mayb i'm really just trying too hard.. sigh. =[

VIRNICE.