my insecurities.
where should i begin.

so much left unsaid.
so much left undone.
so much left behind.
so much within.

sigh.
i sound so emo.
well, maybe i am.

training today was okay.
dont know why, J2 guys only got 3 ppl train.
kangseng, wenze and jiazheng.

somehow,
i'm just reminded of the past.
there was one period of time
where almost the whole TK track team ppl were injured.
and comp was near if i dint remember wrongly.

being the capt,
it's really quite disappointing to see such a sight.
injuries and all.
so you can know,
how coach feels as he see one by one getting injured.
sigh.

that boils down to my STUPID LEG.
why now!
why right leg!
WHY WHY WHY!

LEG, PLEASE ZHEN QI YI DIAN! DONT GIVE UP ON ME! BECAUSE I DONT WANNA GIVE UP ON YOU! PLEASE!
: (

sigh.
i must pray pray pray!
HEAL!

i really dont know wat to do already lah.
everybody ask me go see doc.
i have enuf of this stupid crap already can!
going to the doc is not fun!!
NOT FUN AT ALL.

nobody understands.
sigh.
:'(

sometimes, i really "pei fu" myself.
how i go to sch,
all crazy and everything.
when deep down inside
it just feels like nothing aint right.

and why do things that SHOULD happen, do not
and things that SHOULD NOT happen, happen?!

and YOU.
you hardly even know me and you say you LOVE me?
i dare say ur LOVE, aint real love.
and please,
dont even TRY to make me fall in love with you.
cuz it wont work.

wat's LOVE?
it means nothing to me.
only the LOVE OF GOD exists.
AGAPE.
: )

maybe bcuz of that stupid incident,
i never trusted it again.
and because of that too,
i've change.
changed so much that i hate the way i am now.
go GA-GA over you-know.
i hate this.
but mayb that's the only way out.
at least for now.

i cant sleep.
but i'm so tired.
someone, sing me a lullaby?

no.3 feels so cold.
how bout mfg.
it's all hopeless.
wishful thinking.

one thing you should know bout me,
I LOVE RUNNING.

dont stop me.
cuz i wont give up.
till the very end.

my insecurities is getting on me.
why that insecurity.
mayb cuz nobody's in charge of that security.
who knows.
noone but Him.
: )

why am i so moody everytime i reach home.
why am i so rude to her.
it's bad enuf that HE is rude to her.
wat has she done to derserve this.
wat right do i have to do this to her.
stupid me. stupid HIM.

but you see,
the REAL me.
hiding in my skin.
BROKEN FROM WITHIN
unveil me,
completely.
i'm loosening my grasp.
there's no need to mask
my frailty.
cuz you see,
the REAL me.

ohh God, help me.
i'm an idiot.

it hurts to give up.
but maybe that's the only way out.

sigh.

today's attendance training was kinda bad.
even tho it's still prob more than the attendance for TK track.
but still, it's lesser than normal.
esp J1 girls.
no.2 dint come.
my darling dint come.
my dear girl got the wrong venue.
little mouse is sick.
mel got too much work to do.
damn sad.
: (

thus, today J1 girls only got me and kingyin.
everybody will quite moodless.
worst of all, i was not high at all.
that's unlike me during training.

moreover, coach gave quite a workout today.
quite deadly to my legs.
and yea, it's quite badly "damaged" now.

legs were all so wobbly after the last workout.
do some stupid burpees thing.
argh.
super tiring.
that's when we realised our legs aint strong enuf.
must train harder!
: )

talking bout that,
when i saw coach today.
i was so paiseh.
dint have the face to see him.
sigh.

i really really dont wanna give up track.
but i dont wanna continue track in tj either.
many reasons, you dont havta know why.

imagine me not being able to jump over hurdles.
that's my main event.
400m hurdles.
i'll miss everything so much.

and also the aj track team.
sure, i'll prob get the same kind of friendly track ppl and everything in tj as well.
but u know, it's not that same.
it'll never be.

and i know i'm a person who hates changes.
i'll stick to sth for as long as possible.
i dont wanna change to a different track team.
sigh.

actually now, i'm also worried that not only i might not b able to get into tj,
i may not get into aj as well.
heard this year quite competitive.
and mayb cuz i put aj as 2nd choice,
i wont b able to get in.
sigh.

the passion for running is definitely still there.
even tho sometimes i really think of giving up.
but i dont think that's the REAL me.

it really hurts to give up everything.
all my efforts.
all that i have trained for.
but maybe, that's the only way out.

i'm afraid my legs will give way too.
: (
just piling up all the injuries wont help.
i know that.
but that's the only way i can run.

i wanna run my best.
even if that's all the trainings i have left with coach tan.
i will give my all.
i will put in 100% effort.
and nothing will stop me now.

till the 6th of march.
we'll see the results.


ohh yes.
i feel like a choco-clause today.
haha.
gave out chocolates to everyone.
it's a late v day gift.
and almost everyone thot it was my bday.
-.-
but it's really a blessing to give!

CHEERS!

*sakae's giraf-fes!
: )

okay.

if you're (J2 track seniors) here for the post dedication,
it's below.
so scroll down.
xD

u know what?
i'm still at a loss to where to go.
even tho i've submitted my form.
why is there such thing as APPEALING?!
mayb it'll b easier if it just SCRAMS.
argh.


SOMEBODY is now trying very very VERY hard to psycho me to stay.
HAHA.

actually, i think i already know wat i want.
or at least i hope so.
but there's just SOMETHING that is stopping me.
and i dont think i know wat's that.
or mayb, i just DONT KNOW.
or am i avoiding?
sigh.

i think i'm very spoilt.
i always get wat i want.
i wanna go aj,
den my coach help me.
now i wanna go tj,
my coach also willing to helping me.
now i'm having second thots,
everyone is trying to help me.
ask me go appeal and everything.
and i'll prob get in cuz i got so many strings to pull.
sigh.
i am very spoilt.


i want drums,
i get drums.
i want guitar,
i get guitar.
i want camera,
i get camera.
now i know how spoilt
and BLESSED i am.
sigh.
wat a REAL me.
SPOILT BRAT.
i'm so irritating!
: (

whywhywhy.
why did i go AJ.
why did i get emotionally attach to AJ.
why is everybody telling me TJ sux.
why is elaine going to mj and leaving me at tj.
why is mingjiang also telling me not to go tj and to go SA.
why am i feeling so uneasy right now.
ARGH.
i hate this man.

WHY IS DECISION MAKING ALWAYS SO DIFFICULT?!

and guess wat i just heard.
coach actually asked bout who staying.
and in PARTICULAR,
ME.
asked the j2s if i was staying in AJ.
: (


why have i done to deserve some kindness from him.
yet i'm so ungrateful.
not only leave aj
but also give up track.
wat is this man!
sigh!
ARGH.


wat should i do.
sigh.

i'm afraid of 6th march.
afraid to go online.
type in my pin no.
and see that SCHOOL on the screen.
right in front of my stupid face.
how would it be like.
how would i react.
omg.
i cant think anymore!
: (

okay okay.
no more thinking!
let that day worry for itself.
and the day that arthur lim is gonna murder me,
is NEAR.
i can just feel it!
: (


okay.
and valentines day just got a new meaning!
normally, people say HAPPY V DAY right?
so, since V= VIRNICE.
thus;
HAPPY VIRNICE DAY!
xD

well, i think there's another meaning to it lah.
mainly is because i wanna b especially HAPPY on that particular day.
xD
shall talk bout that mayb later.

so anyway,
v day this year was quite okay.
went out with my OG!
had bbq at weitian's hse.
was quite fun i guess.
we kinda relived our childhood days.
haha.
or mayb we just plain childish.
xD
weplayed catching okayy!!
haha.

here are some photos! xD

omg. guys shopping! take THAT! xD

me and karmun! that lovable girl. : )

hahaha. ronson looks DUUUMMBBB. holding that POTATO!

haha. that is xuanfeng, weilun and ronson! looking for food. xD

you're on candid camera! : )

ronson trying to flirt with that sales auntie. HAHAHA!

karmun and me on the bars! xD that's tiansheng's hand. -.-

xuanfeng deprived of childhood! and he showed it too much! haha!

ronson also. act cute! who trying to shoot him wif CORN?!! hahaha.

haha. he looks spastic!! xD

and they call me the satay queen. HAHA.

now xuanfeng's turn to FAN. tiring loh.

weilun trying to open the sparkling juice. xD

our heart-shape failed. TERRIBLY. haha.

yay. that's us! : ) we had that security guard to take picture for us. he's old. and dont know how to take photos. =X count 1, den take pic liao. -.-

well, okay.

14feb2005.

on that fateful day,
a confession was made.
many thots were up.
she tried to get rid of it.
but it dint work.
how come she dint notice.
and she finally gave in.


a new love story began.
but it ended too soon.
much too early than expected.

sad. disappointed. depressed.
why did that confession have to b made.
but she still was glad she made that choice.
not much regrets.
except regrets for making decisions in an impulse.

but she wants to forget.
memories to be kept.
but other thots to b GONE.

and mayb bcuz of that,
she changed.
especially about the way she look at
LOVE.
and den she starts to think.
wat that is REALLY all about.

no more commitments for her.
no more thinking.
no more nothing.

so 14feb is,
HAPPY VIRNICE DAY!
: )

as mentioned in the previous post,
i'm now gonna dedicate a post to my J2 track seniors!

TO ALL J2 AJ TRACKERS.

seniors!
: )

even tho i've only been with you all for less than 2 months,
i must say i have learnt much from all of you.
some may say i'm exaggerating or watsoever.
but this is how i feel.
that all of you has taught me much.

one main thing that u all have taught me
is to,
NEVER GIVE UP.

i've seen the fighting spirit in all of you
and i must say,
i really admire that.

i almost gave up on track.
i was THIS close.
but after wat i saw in you all,
i persevere on.

one particular day after training,
as in when coach had left.
i saw the guys self training.
eugene inclusive.
they were just running
and running.
i saw that DETERMINATION
to improve.
that taught me to not give up on track.
somehow.

and the constant motivation all of you give each other
is really amazing.

altho during TK track training we also have that,
i dont see the whole team getting involved.
some wont encourage others.
only most of the EXCO members are doing it.

and also,
i see UNITY.

all of you are bonded by something.
which is, i suppose,
the passion for running.

unlike TK.
altho most of us are united.
but there are a few who spoils everything.
some outcast.
and a few whom the team dont really like.

but in AJ track,
i see everyone involved.
i see ONE TEAM.
and all of you have made me feel part of it.
i enjoyed training with you all for the past 2 months.
i really felt the warmth
and friendliness.
and everything.

TO MEET
TO KNOW
AND THEN TO PART
IS THE SADDEST MISERY
OF THE HUMAN HEART.

i sure am gonna miss all of you.
training has been real fun.
and thanks for tolerating my crap and craziness.
that's to the J2 girls.
as i dont think the J2 guys have ever heard my crap.
HAH.
but yea,
thanks all of you for teaching me so much.

i'm sorry to disappoint all of you.
because i MAY not stay in aj.
and also, if i really go to tj,
i wont join track.
=X

mainly because i dont wanna train under any coach
except MR TAN.
he's the best coach i'll ever find.
he knows me too well.
i dont want any other coach except him.
so if it's TJ
it's BYE BYE to track.
: (

i'm sorry, seniors.
but i'm very grateful to all of you.
i will remember you all
and i hope we can go out someday!
and keep in touch!

ALL OF YOU WILL BE MISSED!

here are some photos of US.
: ) J2 girls with me and clar!
i'll miss all the craziness we had together. : (

J2 trackers. *where is KANGSENG, MINGJUN, JIAZHENG?!
my lovable J2 track seniors! : )




here are the J1 girls. except that bao qing tian nvr come! and a few others. SHERRY!

not forgetting,


and a big
THANK YOU
to all of you.

TAKECARE;

i'm so FAN!!
troubled!!
to the extent that,
i cried.
sigh.

now i'm stuck between AJC and TJC.

frankly, i'm emotionally attached to AJ.
not ONLY because of my coach.
but also because of the people there.

most of my classmates and OG ppl are staying.
and most imptly,
i will miss the J2 trackers if i leave. : (
wat's more, clar's staying!

sigh.

i know there's much more to consider besides the PEOPLE.
how bout distance?
but that's just the STUPID thing!
why must AJ be so far?!
and actually, their uniform aint that nice. =X
but, STILL!
argh.

i've heard many many opinions and everything.
in conclusion,
ppl in AJ wants me to stay
but ppl NOT in AJ,
wants me to go TJ.

double sigh. : (

why is it always so hard to make decisions.
wasting my tears over this small stupid matter.
ARGH.

actually, i'm quite sure i wont get into TJ. =X
cuz it's far too competitive
it's just too popular among students studying in the east side.
ppl with 7, 8 points,
sure want to go TJ.
not forgetting those who score 10
and went to TJ for 1st 3 months.

other factors to consider would b,
would the dist factor affect my church commitments?
my commitment to God.

sigh.

that boils down to God's will for me.

laoda told me to let God choose for me.
put TJ first choice,
AJ second choice.
den see wat is God's will.

but,
i'm afraid i'm not strong enough to accept His will.
i wanna do His will.
but i dont wanna live my 2 years in regrets.
sound so serious.
sigh.

i've only been on this earth for 16 years plus.
and i've already got so many regrets.
made stupid choices.
and i had a horrible past.
i really dont wanna have anymore regrets.

but then again,
why would God ever put me in a place where i'll b unhappy right?
mayb i should learn to trust God more.
: )

the problem with me is that.
i always know how to advice ppl
and when the same thing happens to me,
i dont know how to do the things that i advice ppl.

take for example my last post.
i advice those who dint do as well as expected to just trust God
for He sees the bigger and better picture.
so yea,
i think i'll just follow that advice.
: )

praise God.

alright.
i just wanna say sth else.
bout my dad.
argh.
come to this kinda thing
den he wanna bother so much.

and the only thing he is concerned about is,
SCHOLARSHIP.
keep asking if i can apply.
not say 9 points very good wat.
sigh.

dont wanna talk bout it le.
just wanna trust God for now.
and dwell in His presence.
: )

alright.
that's all for now.
i will dedicate my next post to my J2s track seniors in AJ.
they will be missed.
: (

takecare;

alright.
results are finally out.
the day that i really dreaded, is OVER.
here are my results.



ohh sickenning C.
spoilt my whole record.
HAHA.
and that's my thumb! : )

and so, as you can see, it's not really very good.
but wat surprised me most was my english.
i expected a C. =X

so ok.
to tell you in detail, wat exactly happened on that day itself.
it was really horrible.
totally.

9th february 2007.

i couldnt slp well the previous night.
woke up at 7 plus.
lazily stayed in bed till 8.
got out of bed.
out of house.
give my sis a lift to the mrt on my bike.
cycled to EAST COAST PARK.
cant believe it right.
HAH.
cuz i lazy to change bus mah.
den got the siglap park connector.
so, yea loh.
cycled all the way down.

met up with elaine and leon.
and patricia, jiexi and bokie!
three of them had their road run
or rather, cross country.
JC more high class mah.
HEH.


so anyway,
i actually dint wanna go
cuz i was afraid if i see HIM,
he would think i go there cuz of him.
but i think i've moved on already lah.
yes, the memories are still there.
but heart's left behind. : )
so yea.


after their x-country ended.
i cycled home.
the rest made their way to bokie's house.
i got all panicky as i bathed and prepared to go to school.
i never felt such anxiety before.
i suddenly became so clumsy
and forgetful in everything i did,
the feeling was just,
i dont know
cant describe.


and then, cuz my mum had to have lunch alone,
i decided to accompany her.
after that, before she left for home and for me, the mrt,
she prayed for me.
and then she told me,
no matter wat the results are,
just msg me.
at that instance, i wanted to just cry in her arms.
but i walked away acting STRONG.

tears almost fell as i walked towards the bus stop.
but i held them back.
i dint only want to ACT strong
i want to BE strong.
cuz sometimes,
you dont have any other choice
but to be strong and accept reality.


it dawned on me that i had to be strong for HER.
my beloved mother.
: )


my whole trip to school,
was a thinking one.
thots never stop coming to my mind.
all the WAT IFs appeared in my mind.
to the extent that,
i told myself
if i did REALLY bad,
i wont go home. =X


the trip to school that day
seemed FOREVER.

as i stepped into the school premises
i could feel the change of atmosphere.
everyone had the same look on their face.
the sec4s 2006 that is.


before we know it,
we were called to go to the hall.
ms nah gave the instructions for the JAE.
it seemed forever too.


and den, our NEW principal
mr TAN,
which i was totally unaware of,
started to announce the results.
it was much of a surprise
as i thot my year would do badly.
BUT, we did even better den last yr!
as a school, that is.
so PRAISE GOD! xD


still, i wasnt convinced that i did relatively ok.
many worries in me.
den BOKIE suddenly cried!!
the atmosphere was unbelievable.
it was pressurizing and you just dont know wat to expect!
that makes it so scary.
omg
imagine i havta go thru all of that again for As!
shucks.


so anyway,
almost every subject we were above national average.
average msg is 12.4 if i remembered correctly.

top student is, expectedly,
ROSHNI.
with 8A1s.
it's INSANE.
totally.


ohh yes.
i think i forgot to mention that i already started to tear when i saw bokie crying. =X
it was just too much.
i couldnt take it!
and the principal was taking far too long to announce the results!
everyone just wanted to get their results.


joanne also called me halfway
when principal announcing results.
den she say why our school so slow.
hahaha.


my dad also called.
kan jiong you see.
=X
and i told him i havent gotten yet.
den he told me to call him once i got it.
it was a phone call that i half regret.
sigh.


soon, it was TIME.
yes, that TIME.

we lined up in our classes.
and according to reg no.
thankfully, i'm SIXTEEN.
so i had time to catch my breath.

but by that time, many of us were already tearing before we even saw our result slips.

this time, it dint seem forever.
it was too FAST!!
everything happened so fast!


soon, i was standing right in front of Mr Foo and Mrs Tey.
with my eyes all teary and everything.
i wasnt ready.
totally.


den, Mr Foo asked me.
"how, virnice? how do you think you did?"


i just shook my head.


and before i know it,
Mr Foo put my result slip right in front of my face.
and AAHHHH.
the first thing i saw was that retarded C!

but den, the words that came out of Mr Foo's mouth,
were the words that made the tears start flowing like a watertap.


"you did very well, virnice. CONGRATULATIONS!"


i was like.
omg. omg. omg. omg.
i started crying and shouting.
it was real bad.
and i couldnt stop.
hugged many many MANY ppl.

and at first,
they all thot i did like, REALLY bad.
cuz i was crying REALLY badly.
haha.


and actually,
the 9 of us planned to see our result slips together.
elaine was "frustrated" when she saw me crying.
she said we were supposed to open together!
i got her wrong.
cuz i thot is need to open a letter to see our results.
so ya.
my bad!
sorry xiao zhu!
=X


well, and den,
messages started coming in.
and phone calls started pouring in.
my fingers were so tired of typing.
and my mouth was so tired talking.
and most of all,
my eyes were so heavy
due to all the crying.
it was just unbelievable.


wat an experience yea?


so all in all,
i just wanna really thank GOD.
cuz none of this is possible without Him.

frankly, i dont think i was very prepared for Os.

i mean,
look at my prelims.
do u know that i got 21points,
BEFORE moderation.
it was the generosity of the school that pulled it down to 15.


and at that time,
before moderation
i got a C6 for eng,
D7 for both my combined humanities (*history and ss)
and pure geog.
and B3 for sci.
a math A1
math A2
chi A2
chi is already the O level score.
the one i took in may.


and so,
for Os,
i did better for almost all of my subjects.
except math,
which i maintained.
it was just amazing.

and i really mean AMAZING.
God's works amazes me all the time.
He makes the impossible, POSSIBLE!

and all the way, He was right beside me.
it's really His grace that brought me thus far.
i'm really very grateful to Him
and i owe Him everything that i am today.


and so,
i'm proud to say,
MY TEARS OF JOY ARE EVIDENCE OF HIS GOODNESS AND MERCY UPON MY LIFE.
praise the Lord!


i hereby,
dedicate my results to my heavenly papa,
GOD!
xD


well, that dint exactly mark the end of my worries.
because i dont know if i should stay in AJ.
=X
will talk about that in my next post.
i have so much to say.
but most impt thing i wanna say is,
GOD ROCKS!
xD

and to those we dint do as well as they EXPECTED,
or did UNEXPECTEDLY well,
dont worry.
i'm sure God has already planned for you
which way you should go.
just trust Him
for He sees the bigger and better picture!

: )

tomorrow's the day.
the day that many has awaited for.
as for me, it's the day i really dread for it to come. =[


many have been asking me if i intend to stay in ajc.
or where i wanna go.
wat am i expecting.
and blah blah blah.
the usuals.


my reply is :
I DONT KNOW.


i really dont know and neither do i wanna think about it.
i just wanna trust God.
trust that He has everything planned out for it.

wat i'm afraid is,
that my results are no good.
den i'll disappoint the people around me.
like my parents. =[


actually, i think i've made up my mind to go JC.
not for myself.
but for my parents.
i'm gonna persevere.
i dont believe i fail so easily!
and God will give me strenght. =]

but problem now is, WHERE.
sigh.

my coach is so good to me and clar.
made me feel so indebted to him.
he's just so NICE!


first, he helped me and clar to get into AJC after we got our prelim results and got into nyj.
now, he helped us to talk to the teacher in charge of track in TJ already!
he told me and clar to call him after we get our results tmr!
how NICE can he get!

i dont even know wat i've done to deserve this.
i've been such a failure.
never achieve anything after so many years of training.
i have let him down. =[
yet, he's still so enthu in helping me and clar.
sigh.


AHHHH...
wat should i do!
i'm at a loss!
PRAY PRAY PRAY!


sigh.


so anyway, i dint go to sch today as i had these giddy spells.
had them for the past 3 days already.
wake up and feel like the whole room's spinning.
so today, i decided to give myself a break.
went to see doc too.
and cuz i got a slight cough,
the doc said the giddyness had sth to do with the cough virus.
wtc?
i think he also dont know wat's wrong with me!


den, kang kang msged me when i was in the polyclinics.
he asked me if i could go down to kallang stadium to lend him my spikes.
and being a good senior, HEH,
i went to lend him.
miss all of them so much man!
and they miss me too!
HEH!


and OHH.
mrs Goh was there too.
we talked abit here and there.
and she said the school will get results at 8am tmr!
den if i dint hear wrongly, she'll msg me or sth!

AHHH!
i dint know howta tell her to NOT msg me!
so,
AHH!
i think i'm probably gonna delete her msg tmr. =X
sigh.


after that, i rushed down to J8.
had PDG dinner.

when i reach, they all were like,
orr hor.. PON SCH.
HAHA.
den i was like,
no lah!
i got MC.
hehe.


and i think the guys deprived of childhood.
all go to the playground and play after eating.
HAH!

and den, there was this small ang mo boy.
his hair was super cool lah!
like shark's fin liddat.
just one straight line of spiky hair.
and he's so young!
haha.


eugene was SO fascinated by it!
so he went over and tried to touch it.
HAHAHA.
den he told the small boy say,
YOUR HAIR VERY NICE.
den the small boy dint know wat he was talking about.
so he went,
THE WATER VERY NICE.
*there was this very small "pond" at the side.
HAH!
it was damn funny.


after that, we played games!
some froggy game first.
"one frog, jumped over the wall, POING."
"two frogs, two frogs, jumped over the wall, jumped over the wall, POING, POING."
and so on.
HAHA!
den timothy keep getting it wrong!
so cute lah he.
den it was ting zhe.
den AHHMA!
HEH!
den they hadta do forfeit.


rongjie came up with that.
and as usual, it was LAME.
it's call KA CHING!
some jackpot thingy.
where u have 3 in a row of the same action den can.


one action is called porn.
so retarded.
the person just shake front and back.
look more like mr bean to me.
HAH!
another action is ballerina.
u know the action lah huh.
and the last one i think is someone playing guitar.
hmm, i think so lah.
haha.


den ahma keep dont wan to do!
HAHA.
but in the end, she ma ma hu hu do abit.
den timothy and tingzhe do so many times liao.
HAH!
super funny.

after that, it was getting late.
so we went to take neoprints!
HEH.
only some of us lah.
100% girls tho!
not all the guys wanna take.

so here it is!

it was very squeezy while taking.

and eugene is damn funny lah!

that poser. HAHA.

and RONGJIE!

another one.

POSER! and like to act cute.

WAHAHA! xD

i had a great time with my PDG overall.

i think we started off as a very quiet class

which alot of teachers were afraid of.

but after that, we got better!

YAY!

praise God! xD

so anyway, gotta go already.

results tmr!

keep me in prayer and wish me all the best!

and all the best to all 2006 O level takers!

God bless! xD

it's so difficult to make choices. esp because u dont know if u're doing the right thing in the first place. i am at a crossroad.

today, pastor Petrina preached about GOD idea VS GOOD idea.
good idea doesnt = God idea.
bad idea can = God idea.
but sometimes, good idea = God idea.

sometimes, it might just be the most sensible and logical thing to do sth. but it might not be wat God wants us to do. that's what makes me so confused now. because i cant decide wat's sensible and wat's not.

the whole gang that went to KFC. ali and his spastic smile! xD

i'm gonna miss them so so so much.

clar's FAMILY. which also came after ME. hehe.

my immediate family. from left to right : erzii, nuerr, ahhma, erzii. =]

i'm supposed to have DISOWN kangkang. but i think i'll acknowledge him again. hehe. but BENNY IS STILL MY ERZII!

JUSTYN, SHOO!

hehe. xD

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