Saturday, February 10, 2007
12:34 AM Y
♥ just the girl.
alright.
results are finally out.
the day that i really dreaded, is OVER.
here are my results.
ohh sickenning C.
spoilt my whole record.
HAHA.
and that's my thumb! : )
and so, as you can see, it's not really very good.
but wat surprised me most was my english.
i expected a C. =X
so ok.
to tell you in detail, wat exactly happened on that day itself.
it was really horrible.
totally.
9th february 2007.
i couldnt slp well the previous night.
woke up at 7 plus.
lazily stayed in bed till 8.
got out of bed.
out of house.
give my sis a lift to the mrt on my bike.
cycled to EAST COAST PARK.
cant believe it right.
HAH.
cuz i lazy to change bus mah.
den got the siglap park connector.
so, yea loh.
cycled all the way down.
met up with elaine and leon.
and patricia, jiexi and bokie!
three of them had their road run
or rather, cross country.
JC more high class mah.
HEH.
so anyway,
i actually dint wanna go
cuz i was afraid if i see HIM,
he would think i go there cuz of him.
but i think i've moved on already lah.
yes, the memories are still there.
but heart's left behind. : )
so yea.
after their x-country ended.
i cycled home.
the rest made their way to bokie's house.
i got all panicky as i bathed and prepared to go to school.
i never felt such anxiety before.
i suddenly became so clumsy
and forgetful in everything i did,
the feeling was just,
i dont know
cant describe.
and then, cuz my mum had to have lunch alone,
i decided to accompany her.
after that, before she left for home and for me, the mrt,
she prayed for me.
and then she told me,
no matter wat the results are,
just msg me.
at that instance, i wanted to just cry in her arms.
but i walked away acting STRONG.
tears almost fell as i walked towards the bus stop.
but i held them back.
i dint only want to ACT strong
i want to BE strong.
cuz sometimes,
you dont have any other choice
but to be strong and accept reality.
it dawned on me that i had to be strong for HER.
my beloved mother.
: )
my whole trip to school,
was a thinking one.
thots never stop coming to my mind.
all the WAT IFs appeared in my mind.
to the extent that,
i told myself
if i did REALLY bad,
i wont go home. =X
the trip to school that day
seemed FOREVER.
as i stepped into the school premises
i could feel the change of atmosphere.
everyone had the same look on their face.
the sec4s 2006 that is.
before we know it,
we were called to go to the hall.
ms nah gave the instructions for the JAE.
it seemed forever too.
and den, our NEW principal
mr TAN,
which i was totally unaware of,
started to announce the results.
it was much of a surprise
as i thot my year would do badly.
BUT, we did even better den last yr!
as a school, that is.
so PRAISE GOD! xD
still, i wasnt convinced that i did relatively ok.
many worries in me.
den BOKIE suddenly cried!!
the atmosphere was unbelievable.
it was pressurizing and you just dont know wat to expect!
that makes it so scary.
omg
imagine i havta go thru all of that again for As!
shucks.
so anyway,
almost every subject we were above national average.
average msg is 12.4 if i remembered correctly.
top student is, expectedly,
ROSHNI.
with 8A1s.
it's INSANE.
totally.
ohh yes.
i think i forgot to mention that i already started to tear when i saw bokie crying. =X
it was just too much.
i couldnt take it!
and the principal was taking far too long to announce the results!
everyone just wanted to get their results.
joanne also called me halfway
when principal announcing results.
den she say why our school so slow.
hahaha.
my dad also called.
kan jiong you see.
=X
and i told him i havent gotten yet.
den he told me to call him once i got it.
it was a phone call that i half regret.
sigh.
soon, it was TIME.
yes, that TIME.
we lined up in our classes.
and according to reg no.
thankfully, i'm SIXTEEN.
so i had time to catch my breath.
but by that time, many of us were already tearing before we even saw our result slips.
this time, it dint seem forever.
it was too FAST!!
everything happened so fast!
soon, i was standing right in front of Mr Foo and Mrs Tey.
with my eyes all teary and everything.
i wasnt ready.
totally.
den, Mr Foo asked me.
"how, virnice? how do you think you did?"
i just shook my head.
and before i know it,
Mr Foo put my result slip right in front of my face.
and AAHHHH.
the first thing i saw was that retarded C!
but den, the words that came out of Mr Foo's mouth,
were the words that made the tears start flowing like a watertap.
"you did very well, virnice. CONGRATULATIONS!"
i was like.
omg. omg. omg. omg.
i started crying and shouting.
it was real bad.
and i couldnt stop.
hugged many many MANY ppl.
and at first,
they all thot i did like, REALLY bad.
cuz i was crying REALLY badly.
haha.
and actually,
the 9 of us planned to see our result slips together.
elaine was "frustrated" when she saw me crying.
she said we were supposed to open together!
i got her wrong.
cuz i thot is need to open a letter to see our results.
so ya.
my bad!
sorry xiao zhu!
=X
well, and den,
messages started coming in.
and phone calls started pouring in.
my fingers were so tired of typing.
and my mouth was so tired talking.
and most of all,
my eyes were so heavy
due to all the crying.
it was just unbelievable.
wat an experience yea?
so all in all,
i just wanna really thank GOD.
cuz none of this is possible without Him.
frankly, i dont think i was very prepared for Os.
i mean,
look at my prelims.
do u know that i got 21points,
BEFORE moderation.
it was the generosity of the school that pulled it down to 15.
and at that time,
before moderation
i got a C6 for eng,
D7 for both my combined humanities (*history and ss)
and pure geog.
and B3 for sci.
a math A1
math A2
chi A2
chi is already the O level score.
the one i took in may.
and so,
for Os,
i did better for almost all of my subjects.
except math,
which i maintained.
it was just amazing.
and i really mean AMAZING.
God's works amazes me all the time.
He makes the impossible, POSSIBLE!
and all the way, He was right beside me.
it's really His grace that brought me thus far.
i'm really very grateful to Him
and i owe Him everything that i am today.
and so,
i'm proud to say,
MY TEARS OF JOY ARE EVIDENCE OF HIS GOODNESS AND MERCY UPON MY LIFE.
praise the Lord!
i hereby,
dedicate my results to my heavenly papa,
GOD!
xD
well, that dint exactly mark the end of my worries.
because i dont know if i should stay in AJ.
=X
will talk about that in my next post.
i have so much to say.
but most impt thing i wanna say is,
GOD ROCKS!
xD
and to those we dint do as well as they EXPECTED,
or did UNEXPECTEDLY well,
dont worry.
i'm sure God has already planned for you
which way you should go.
just trust Him
for He sees the bigger and better picture!
: )
