Tuesday, February 13, 2007
1:01 AM Y
♥ just the girl.
i'm so FAN!!
troubled!!
to the extent that,
i cried.
sigh.
now i'm stuck between AJC and TJC.
frankly, i'm emotionally attached to AJ.
not ONLY because of my coach.
but also because of the people there.
most of my classmates and OG ppl are staying.
and most imptly,
i will miss the J2 trackers if i leave. : (
wat's more, clar's staying!
sigh.
i know there's much more to consider besides the PEOPLE.
how bout distance?
but that's just the STUPID thing!
why must AJ be so far?!
and actually, their uniform aint that nice. =X
but, STILL!
argh.
i've heard many many opinions and everything.
in conclusion,
ppl in AJ wants me to stay
but ppl NOT in AJ,
wants me to go TJ.
double sigh. : (
why is it always so hard to make decisions.
wasting my tears over this small stupid matter.
ARGH.
actually, i'm quite sure i wont get into TJ. =X
cuz it's far too competitive
it's just too popular among students studying in the east side.
ppl with 7, 8 points,
sure want to go TJ.
not forgetting those who score 10
and went to TJ for 1st 3 months.
other factors to consider would b,
would the dist factor affect my church commitments?
my commitment to God.
sigh.
that boils down to God's will for me.
laoda told me to let God choose for me.
put TJ first choice,
AJ second choice.
den see wat is God's will.
but,
i'm afraid i'm not strong enough to accept His will.
i wanna do His will.
but i dont wanna live my 2 years in regrets.
sound so serious.
sigh.
i've only been on this earth for 16 years plus.
and i've already got so many regrets.
made stupid choices.
and i had a horrible past.
i really dont wanna have anymore regrets.
but then again,
why would God ever put me in a place where i'll b unhappy right?
mayb i should learn to trust God more.
: )
the problem with me is that.
i always know how to advice ppl
and when the same thing happens to me,
i dont know how to do the things that i advice ppl.
take for example my last post.
i advice those who dint do as well as expected to just trust God
for He sees the bigger and better picture.
so yea,
i think i'll just follow that advice.
: )
praise God.
alright.
i just wanna say sth else.
bout my dad.
argh.
come to this kinda thing
den he wanna bother so much.
and the only thing he is concerned about is,
SCHOLARSHIP.
keep asking if i can apply.
not say 9 points very good wat.
sigh.
dont wanna talk bout it le.
just wanna trust God for now.
and dwell in His presence.
: )
alright.
that's all for now.
i will dedicate my next post to my J2s track seniors in AJ.
they will be missed.
: (
takecare;
