Wednesday, February 21, 2007
10:12 PM Y
♥ just the girl.
it hurts to give up.
but maybe that's the only way out.
sigh.
today's attendance training was kinda bad.
even tho it's still prob more than the attendance for TK track.
but still, it's lesser than normal.
esp J1 girls.
no.2 dint come.
my darling dint come.
my dear girl got the wrong venue.
little mouse is sick.
mel got too much work to do.
damn sad.
: (
thus, today J1 girls only got me and kingyin.
everybody will quite moodless.
worst of all, i was not high at all.
that's unlike me during training.
moreover, coach gave quite a workout today.
quite deadly to my legs.
and yea, it's quite badly "damaged" now.
legs were all so wobbly after the last workout.
do some stupid burpees thing.
argh.
super tiring.
that's when we realised our legs aint strong enuf.
must train harder!
: )
talking bout that,
when i saw coach today.
i was so paiseh.
dint have the face to see him.
sigh.
i really really dont wanna give up track.
but i dont wanna continue track in tj either.
many reasons, you dont havta know why.
imagine me not being able to jump over hurdles.
that's my main event.
400m hurdles.
i'll miss everything so much.
and also the aj track team.
sure, i'll prob get the same kind of friendly track ppl and everything in tj as well.
but u know, it's not that same.
it'll never be.
and i know i'm a person who hates changes.
i'll stick to sth for as long as possible.
i dont wanna change to a different track team.
sigh.
actually now, i'm also worried that not only i might not b able to get into tj,
i may not get into aj as well.
heard this year quite competitive.
and mayb cuz i put aj as 2nd choice,
i wont b able to get in.
sigh.
the passion for running is definitely still there.
even tho sometimes i really think of giving up.
but i dont think that's the REAL me.
it really hurts to give up everything.
all my efforts.
all that i have trained for.
but maybe, that's the only way out.
i'm afraid my legs will give way too.
: (
just piling up all the injuries wont help.
i know that.
but that's the only way i can run.
i wanna run my best.
even if that's all the trainings i have left with coach tan.
i will give my all.
i will put in 100% effort.
and nothing will stop me now.
till the 6th of march.
we'll see the results.
ohh yes.
i feel like a choco-clause today.
haha.
gave out chocolates to everyone.
it's a late v day gift.
and almost everyone thot it was my bday.
-.-
but it's really a blessing to give!
CHEERS!
*sakae's giraf-fes!
: )
