Monday, February 26, 2007
9:35 PM Y
♥ just the girl.
my insecurities.
where should i begin.
so much left unsaid.
so much left undone.
so much left behind.
so much within.
sigh.
i sound so emo.
well, maybe i am.
training today was okay.
dont know why, J2 guys only got 3 ppl train.
kangseng, wenze and jiazheng.
somehow,
i'm just reminded of the past.
there was one period of time
where almost the whole TK track team ppl were injured.
and comp was near if i dint remember wrongly.
being the capt,
it's really quite disappointing to see such a sight.
injuries and all.
so you can know,
how coach feels as he see one by one getting injured.
sigh.
that boils down to my STUPID LEG.
why now!
why right leg!
WHY WHY WHY!
LEG, PLEASE ZHEN QI YI DIAN! DONT GIVE UP ON ME! BECAUSE I DONT WANNA GIVE UP ON YOU! PLEASE!
: (
sigh.
i must pray pray pray!
HEAL!
i really dont know wat to do already lah.
everybody ask me go see doc.
i have enuf of this stupid crap already can!
going to the doc is not fun!!
NOT FUN AT ALL.
nobody understands.
sigh.
:'(
sometimes, i really "pei fu" myself.
how i go to sch,
all crazy and everything.
when deep down inside
it just feels like nothing aint right.
and why do things that SHOULD happen, do not
and things that SHOULD NOT happen, happen?!
and YOU.
you hardly even know me and you say you LOVE me?
i dare say ur LOVE, aint real love.
and please,
dont even TRY to make me fall in love with you.
cuz it wont work.
wat's LOVE?
it means nothing to me.
only the LOVE OF GOD exists.
AGAPE.
: )
maybe bcuz of that stupid incident,
i never trusted it again.
and because of that too,
i've change.
changed so much that i hate the way i am now.
go GA-GA over you-know.
i hate this.
but mayb that's the only way out.
at least for now.
i cant sleep.
but i'm so tired.
someone, sing me a lullaby?
no.3 feels so cold.
how bout mfg.
it's all hopeless.
wishful thinking.
one thing you should know bout me,
I LOVE RUNNING.
dont stop me.
cuz i wont give up.
till the very end.
my insecurities is getting on me.
why that insecurity.
mayb cuz nobody's in charge of that security.
who knows.
noone but Him.
: )
