Saturday, March 31, 2007
11:58 PM Y
♥ just the girl.
it's really heartwarming to see that one by one,
everyone is picking themselves.
and i'm glad that i was able to help
in one way or another.
:)
as for me,
i'm still standing where i am.
well, friday was both a sad and happy day for me.
i shall explain why.
happy thing #1most of class 06/07 PAE helped ms lee for the math station
for I&E day.
even tho the classes we came in to take part in the activity
werent so enthu and everything,
i'm glad we were able to help ms lee.
and also,
bond as one class again!
we managed to catch up with one another.
and even sat around the table just to chit chat abit
after the event and waiting for the debrief to start!
:)
happy thing #2i did hurdles that day!
YAY!
but it was really tiring.
at first,
i kept on shuffling when i was gonna reach the hurdle.
and coach asked me to try again.
and on second try,
I DID IT!
yay!
and i became so high after that.
i couldnt stop jumping
and laughing.
even in the gym!
i also told the donald duck joke!
copyrighted from SHAWN WEE.
hahaha!
super funny!
xD
happy thing #3rebecca came to church today!
for final destination TWO!
i felt bad tho,
for making her wait
as i was held up in school.
=X
sorry girl!
but i'm glad she enjoyed herself overall!
more glad that her presence was there yest!
praise God!
xD
happy thing #4there were quite a number of souls saved too!
i think the skit was really touching!
moved me to tears!
it was really good.
praise God again!
all angels rejoice in heaven!
:)
and now...
sad thing #1it was mr larry lee's last day of school.
he gave a really inspiring speech.
which moved me to tears as well.
but i held back.
tho we only spent SEVEN days with him
i felt that it was so fruitful.
he's a very good gp teacher.
and it just makes me wonder
why people are leaving me,
one by one.
just liddat.
sigh.
sad thing #2when asked by pastor kok hwa,
if the church building somehow was to collaspe there and then,
am i very sure that i will end up in heaven?
and he asked those who think that way, to stand.
and many christians did.
i dont know if they did it cuz everyone else is doing it
or bcuz they really feel that they will go heaven.
as for me,
it isnt cuz i dont have God in my heart.
but somehow,
i just dint have the courage to do so.
i can just imagine me,
standing at the door of heaven,
facing judgement,
and looking at God as he flips for the Book of Life for my name.
and answer me with a "sorry, ur name's not here."
altho i know that He loves me no matter what,
i dont know why i cant bring myself to stand up.
mayb bcuz i feel that my life isnt going the way it shld go?
or i'm too sinful?
wat rubbish ya?
but no one really knows how it feels.
sad thing #3I CANT CRY!
alright.
that's about it.
and as for today.
i really thank God for a good rest.
cuz suddenly,
today's activities were cancelled.
first was work.
den the free tutoring thingy.
den drumming lessons.
den outreach due to the rain.
thank God that i can finally take a break.
but next weekend is gonna b hectic again.
ohh well.
anyway,
i went out with jas and mic today again!
after outreach!
my sis hadta go to work.
so yea.
we went to northpoint for dinner.
had our BUBBLE TEA.
but no oreo.
:(
and we went to food court!
budget lah.
hahaha.
me and mic had tomyam!
while jas had some beef thingy.
heh.
we went to walk walk after that.
went to popular
was supposed to buy assessments for myself.
end up with one GP essay book
and a word search book
AND a sudoku book!
wahaha.
xD
also cant find any math assesment books mah.
so liddat loh.
hehe.
we went to the arcade too!
played bishi bashi!
and den bball!
quite crappy.
i prefer the one at downtown east.
haha.
we wanted to watch movie after that.
so made our way to tamp mall.
and realised that there wasnt any timing for the movie we wanted.
and jas dont wanna watch TMNT!
:(
hahaha.
end up,
we went EAT.
AGAIN!
omg.
so fattening!
chocolates and fries!
hahaha.
we talked alot at macs too!
it was really great.
:)
anyway,
i really admire both of them.
able to share everything with each other.
wat's more,
they can just look for each other anytime.
cuz they're in the same house.
haha.
too bad i dont have that kind of luxury.
hahaha.
anyway,
--- finally said it today.
i wasnt ready for it.
at all.
i think i was just trying to avoid it.
that i dint make myself go think about it.
i just hope it does not change anything.
i want things to be the way it was like before.
i'm sorry i couldnt provide any answer.
i was just at a loss.
i dont wanna think about anything anymore.
NG YU XUAN!
i miss you like crazy can!
wont you please come back to me!
i need your shoulder!
:(
i miss those good old pri school days.
if given a chance,
i wont ever wanna go to a diff school from you.
i really wish like we had a set of fixed frens.
who will go with us whevever we go.
whichever school as well.
then we wont havta go thru the process of
meeting, knowing, and then parting.
:'(
people say must get to know more new frens.
but for me,
i rather have a small group of frens.
and den we'll be very close.
we share everything,
go thru thick and thin.
know each other inside out.
share our problems with one another.
and we know we'll have each other's back.
no matter wat happens.
no offence to my new frens out there.
it's not that i regret knowing u all.
mayb it's cuz i miss my old frens too much.
:(
i'm sorry!
