Thursday, April 12, 2007
9:48 PM Y
♥ just the girl.
i feel like blogging today.
and i have no idea why.
hahaha.
despite the fact that i have so much work to do.
HMMMM.
to tell u the truth,
just 5 days ago,
SUNDAY.
i was crying like crazy.
and YES,
i finally cried.
i finally understood wat Gina meant.
this kinda thing cant be forced.
and neither can it happen as and when u like it.
u just feel for it,
and tears begin to flow.
THE ART OF CRYING.
hahhaa.
LAME.
after i left them,
i just suddenly felt this sense of lonliness.
and i started tearing in the mrt.
okay,
how embarrassing is THAT?
!!!!!
and when i reached home,
i received even worst news.
i feel that i'm a failure.
cant even do my part as a daughter well.
well enuf for her to not worry.
and well enuf for her to live happily.
and well enuf for her to eat well.
so how bad did i FAIL?
like REALLY REALLY BAD.
i think it's a "U"
UNDERGRADE.
sigh.
plus the work load that i had.
and everything else.
i was really THIS close to breaking down.
but thank God for shirley.
she was there to encourage me.
and to push me on.
thanks girl.
I LOVE YOU VERY VERY VERY MUCH!
:D
i guess,
everyone's feeling as stressful as i am.
a good example is clar.
i'm not alone.
yet sometimes it's just so difficult to find the strength to even move.
and sometimes, it's just so tempting to give up.
i often wonder,
why we study so hard for.
it's not like the smarter ones go to heaven
and the stupidier ones go to hell
or watsoever.
it just doesnt make sense.
but life doesnt make sense,
does it?
thankfully for me,
i have my heavenly papa.
who gave me SHIRLEY.
and many more around me
He also gave me the ability to go CRAZY
and making the people around me laugh crazily too.
i hope in some way or another,
i have helped them to distress.
:)
so okay.
enuf of the emo-ness.
well, not exactly.
cuz right now,
i have something to confess.
my leg actually hurts SUPER BADLY.
my lateral hamstring there.
just that i nvr say it
nor do i show it.
and it's probably gonna remain liddat.
mayb until after nats.
cuz it's not affecting my performance.
actually, IT IS.
but in a postive way!
:)
coach's happy.
and i'm happy.
and everyone's HAPPY!
:D
OHH OHH.
and my dearest shirley just came up with this wonderful phrase!
VIR IS THE ROOT OF ALL LAUGHTERS!
hahaha!
how cute is that!
omg!
i love it!
hahaha.
pardon my craziness once again.
:D
well. now for something to ponder about.
have you ever felt so alone.
or like you just feel that everyone hate something about you.
but they just pretend they dont.
or have you ever felt like you dont fit in.
like everything you do is never right.
or that people dont like you for who you are.
have you ever done something for someone
because you would like the person to do the same to you.
have you ever feel like you need your other half
but cant find that perfect person.
have you ever gave sth to another person
because you would like to have it so much that you think someone would want to have it.
have you ever feel that nobody understands you
or that you have nobody to turn to.
have you ever behaved so badly towards someone
because you want that person to not worry about you
and to take care of themself instead.
have you ever made someone think u hate them
because you love them so much.
my answer is Him.
:)
