ahhhh, so sorry people.
been so busy and stressed about everything.
mainly PROMOS.
and everything's just piling up.
one by one.
and i really dont know how long more can i last.
because each and every day,
my energy is draining away. ):


but thank you gang and wall once again.
and not forgetting my WIFE.
for you all saw the tears that no one else could.
and give me all the support that i need.
if i ever let any one of you down,
i'm really sorry.
but i can assure you,
i'm trying my best already. =/


so ya, been emo-ing alot these days.
thanks jasmine gan, wall and wifey
for tolerating all that emo-ness.
and being there for me.
it's just that i think this is a tough period of time for me.
and i'm just learning to pul thru,
with God's strength and your support. (:


the feeling of PROMOS is really like sai.
i could study till i cry please. -.-
doing math could just drive me nuts.
and stupid globalisation doesnt seem to be able to
get into my big fat dumb brains?
and i know the concepts but i dont know how to apply?
how dumb is that?!
sigh.


but amidst all these horrible studying,
i finally did sth which i wanted to do some time ago.
just that i dint have the courage too.
so yea, i felt relieved after that. (:
and i guess it's a new beginning for me.
something to look forward to after dumb promos. (:


woots.
cant wait to run on saturday!
i dont care, i'm going heart.sports.
because i cant resist captain's ball,
and captain's ball cant resist me! :D


if what's within is made known,
you just might get a surprise.
and i got a pleasant one.
thank you. (:

woots.
love my new blogskin. :D
and updates soon!
or at least i think so. :D

7 days to PROMOS! ):

argh.
I'M LOSING IT.
seriously.

but thank you gang,
for being there for me.
special thanks to jasmine gan
and gabriel ling.
for those encouraging/cheer up lil note/drawing.
really appreciate it. (:

and this has been one of the worst weeks.
could things get worst?

like promos are 2 weeks away.
and i'm barely prepared. ):

if what's within is made known,
can things still remain the way they are?

and sometimes the sudden rush is there.
because it's heavy and has to be let out.
yet the consequences are unimaginable.
and the mouth has to control what the heart wants to say.

if only you would use your heart to see.

if you were a road,
i'd learn every turn till i
could find my way with my eyes closed.
if you were a song,
i'd sing along till i
knew every word and every note.

but you were everything to me,
a mystery;
you're the love i live to see.

by heart; by soul,
that's how i want to know you.
keep you as close as
breath is to life;
wanna watch your love unfold,
by heart; by soul.

if you were a place,
i'd stay my whole life till i
had every corner memorized.
and if you were a star,
i'd follow you home,
you would be the light that is my only guide.

you were everything to me,
my a to z;
and will be forever and eternity.

by heart; by soul,
that's how i want to know you.
keep you as close as
breath is to life;
wanna watch your love unfold,
by heart; by soul.

i wanna know you inside and out
better than i even know myself.

by heart; by soul,
that's how i want to know you.
keep you as close as
breath is to life;
wanna watch your love unfold,
by heart; by soul.

if you were a star,
i'd follow you home,
by heart; by soul.

ohh, hello.
ahhh, i totally forgot all about amazing singapore!
hah. :D

it was an experience that i would never forget lah.
mayb cuz i havent been playing the amazing races
oragnised by efc,
for two years already.
so felt that last sat was abit hiong.
haha. :D

i woke up that morning all excited lah.
but then it was raining.
so was afraid it would get cancelled but it dint! :D

and first time i dint bring any bag out please.
not first time, but one of the very few times!
felt so qing song lah.
just hang my hp over my neck. :D

okay so 1st pit stop was at some panjang area.
and we actually managed to trick rita and her g12
to go to thw wrong place. hah. =/
there we hadta throw tennis balls into a container
or play golf which is like -.-
and when i managed to throw the ball in,
i jumped upand scream like a crazy girl please!
and dennis recorded everything down on camera lah!
AHHHHH.
image destruction completed. ):

2nd pit stop was at stupid SUNGEI BULOH.
long long loooonnggg way in please!
it was really mentally challenging.
but when we reached there,
we overtook quite a few grps already. :D
and we lost jasmine gan there. ):
STUPID SUNGEI BULOH.

3rd pit stop was at ntu!
the scenery there quite nice.
and cs fell please! =/
too kan jiong.
and okay, i shall not elaborate further on the irony. :D

and we caught up with the ppl
who took the express bus frm sungei buloh
so WOOTS. :D

the rest of the pit stops were okay.
not as hiong as the sungei buloh one.

4th pit stop was the science discovery centre.
had to paddle that stupid thing.
made me thigh muscles cramp please! -.-
and had to collect the next clue frm cass and jin long
at the other side of the lake?
i dont know what u call that lah. hah.

5th pit stop was chinatown!
had to seperate dumb red/green/white beans!
so retarded please! -.-

6th pit stop was some malayan railway station?
and by the time, our g12 was one our own already.
the all girl group. :D
there we had to answer dumb math question lah.
den everyone was tired and couldnt think.
so we got the wrong answer and hadta stay there for 10 min.
almost everyone did.
i only knowbenjamin's grp didnt!
he's so smart please. haha. (:

hmm 7th pit stop was at pandang there.
and the bus that we were on,
door spoilt on the way
and den it became our private bus!
it was super funny please.
it dint let our passangers board,
only alight.
and it was so cool lah.
haha.

pandang there was super retarded please.
we hadta recite the pledge in chinese!
thankfully for our g12,
we were already at an advantage
cuz we only had 4 ppl, making it easier to learn.
plus, me and my sis used to say it in pri sch.
altho it was quite some time ago,
it was still somewhere in our heads.
and so, it came quite naturally.
our g12 was said to be the best grp to recite it!
somemore, we only did it once!
so WOOTS. :D

and yay, after that was the last pit stop!
some chopstick thing!
hahahaa. :D
at first me and my sis dint know where to go
cuz we didnt see the clue.
we only kept hearing yireng say,
it's there only!
quick quick, run run!
hahaha. super funny lah. :D

so guess what?
we were FIFFTTTTHH!!!
5th!!!!
WOOTS.
all girl grp somemore okay!
power anot. :D

and reg A clinched 4 positions among the top 5. :D
making us the overall champion for amazing singapore 2007!
WOOOHOOOO! :D

that's about it.
den it was full gang attendance for dinner. :D
but everyone quite seh already.
plus my left foot pain again.
so not much mood.
but still, enjoyed the company. :D

ohhohh.
and i forgot to mention i slept at 5.30AM the previous night. -.-
so imagine the seh-ness i was feeling. haha.

plus, the same night, i stayed over at sheryl's hse
just to complete the stupid WR. -.-
and sheryl said i had bloodshot eyes already.

i slept at 2am liddat that night.
so in church the next day,
feel so shitty please.
and played so shitty at rzone too. ):
i keep messing up the worship lah.
think all the musicians very pek chek with me. ):
especially...... ):

argh, mayb i shld stop playing at rzone for awhile.
till i'm more ready.
the worst thing is i cant play/work under stress.
and it's always stressful playing at rzone. );
sigh.


i want to stop relying on you.
i need to stop relying on you.
because one day if i ever need you,
and you're not there,
i dont know what i'm gonna do
so please stop being there for me.
as much as i want it to remain that way.
but somehow i just know,
if i dont stop now,
i will just sink in deeper.
unless you can tell me now,
you feel the same way as i do,
-still unsure, but going to be sure.
if not, it's goodbye.
once in a lifetime means there's no second chance.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO VIRNICE NG YUN WEN! :D

please smile because today is in memory of the day
that God brought me onto this earth
to bring you never-ending moments
of joy and laughter. :D
10 september 1990.

woots.
my special day of the year is here again. :D
this birthday is slightly better than last yr.
but i wouldnt say much better.

then again, the birthday surprise is not included.
if not, it'll be the best birthday ever. (:

i dont know why birthday wishes frm ppl,
means so much to me.
even if it's just a simple,
happy birthday.

i guess it's because
for that simple msg to appear in my phone/msn/friendster,
that person took the time and effort
to wish me.
at least, they cared enuf to do so.
and i think that's what matters to me most. (:

so thank you everyone out there.
who took the time and effort,
to remember me on this very special day.
i really appreciate it alot. (:

this is possibly and probably,
the very first time that my birthday
is not during the sept hols.
so it feels a lil weird spending it in sch?
guess it's just not as fun as spending one whole day out.
and it feels different too.

but nevertheless,
i concluded my day with dinner at swensens
with wifey, reggie, brendan, fifi and garrett.
and i shall not talk bout sch cuz it's as boring as ever. :D
the only main thing that happened in sch
is that i gave chocs/lollipop to friends ard me! (:
plus ms huang and mr sng. :D


so it was swensens at ps after sch today.
woots, it's been awhile since i went there.
i had breaded chicken!
wife had salmon and mushroom baked rice.
reggie had prawn dippers and curry chicken baked rice.
brendan had chicken baked rice.
garrett had fish baked rice.
fifi had 49ERS chicken thingy.
and i seriously had no idea wat was with baked rice today. :D



as for dessert,
i had a free birthday firehouse
cuz it's my birthday! :D
and it was like a birthday cake.
with candles and all. (:
wife had merri-mint, chosen by her eeney miney mo way! hah.
reggie and fifi had sticky chewy chocolate
brendan had frost malt thingy.
and garrett had double scoop of orange! (:
photos later. :D


and it was just countless moments of laughter.
stupid jokes.
and more laughter.
photo-taking.
eating and more FATS. =/
but overall, i enjoyed myself!
thanks for everything u guys! (:


the rest left after dinner
while wife accompanied me for awhile.
as i had to wait for hao ren.
and looked for sheryl's present as well. :D


den wife had to go home.
so i waited in macs.
rotted there alone. hah.


haoren came not long after.
and we left after he gave me my present.
it was really nice of him lah.
so thanks alot, hao ren! (:



okay and i spend the last few hours of my birthday,
SLEEPING! -.-
argh, can u believe it?!
how pig please!


and my family had to wake me up at bout 9 plus

to sing me a birthday song. ):
that's how sad lah.
and no cutting of birthday cake this yr. ):
cuz my family got me just one slice of oreo cheese cake!
so this birthday is full of oreo cheese cake. hah.
but that's good enuf.
so thank you family.
i love you all. (:

and dad got me a beijing olympic water bottle!
it's super cool please.
and i think it's very hard to get?
he gave it to my mum before he left for sudan.
a pity i couldnt celebrate my special day with him.
sigh. =/



okay photos now.



hah. i forgot to take pic of the food BEFORE we started eating. so woots. :D



woots. my birthday ice cream! :D
make a wish ; make a prayer! (:
that's not two okay signs hor. i was just counting to THREE before i blew out the candle. :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMANDA! (:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHONG YANG! (:


okay.
my mood just got really ruined.
to the extent that i'm missing high school musical two right now,
when the tv is just like a few steps away frm me
and i can hear everything. -.-
my birthday eve is starting to get worst. ):


to someone.
i'm not the one who hasnt been trying.
it isnt fair to say that neither side is trying.
because i tried,
but mayb u dint try seeing?

and we did ask you to join the gang
but u dint want?
mayb you thot it was too childish for you or something.

as for the surprise,
they did it as a gang.
and they were afraid if they asked u along,
you would feel left out or something.

in the first place,
if u really cared about making my birthday special,
you would be the one organising it,
like how i organised ur birthday surprise.

in any case, i'm just really disappointed.
about the way u say/treat me and my gang.
you have ur own clique too.
just that they're not in church.
what makes them so different frm my grp of frens?

and it's not like we WANT to leave you out.
you chose to leave youself out.
like when we asked u to join us for dinner and all.
we tried okay. ):

and you know,
how i wished we could be like jas and mic.
they spend so much quality time together.
and they enjoy telling each other stuff.

so how bout us?
i would really treasure our quality time
if you ever gave me a chance too.
but sometimes, i'm so afraid of the way u judge me,
just like the way u judge my grp of frens,
that i dare not tell you things.
you make urself unapproachable
but i dare say, i tried.
i really did.

and okay, mayb i am at fault too.
but unless u tell me,
how would i know where i went wrong.
did u even TRY telling me?

mayb our relationship started off on the wrong foot.
we dint cultivate a good one frm young.
and things arent looking good now either.
and i thot we both promise to try
but it doesnt seem to be working.

is this the end?
is this how far our relationship can go,
that i dont even have the chance to call you my best friend?
and when i try, i'm irritating?

i really wish things could change for the better.
but i can only pray.
if this is the only way that our relationship can be,
den i'm tired of trying too.
sigh. ):

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BENEDICT(*efc)! :D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIEW KEE! :D

september is a month of birthdays.
i told you so, i told you so! :D

and WOOTS. :D
i'm ultra happy today please.
and i shall tell you why.
in a few more sentences time. :D
and it's making me UNSLEEPABLE!
tho i have amazing singapore tmr.
so AHHHH! hah.

and it's gonna be a long post.
but dont stop reading! :D

so okay, talked to jasmine on the phone again last nite.
until her phone no batt.
not sure what time was that.
but i suppose it's close to 4am? :D

and i woke up at 11.45am today.
and thot to myself,
WHAT A BORING DAY IT IS.
couldnt find anyone to mug with. ):

planned to go amk lib.
and if too many ppl/cant get seats,
i would go to the mac nearby.
but both plan A and B failed lah. ):

in the end, i was walking aimlessly along amk road.
like some lonely loser. ):
how sad please.
at that time i was really lost and all.
dont know where to go.
and ended up at some void deck.
wanted to study there
but then jas msged me and suggested khatibs macs.
after much consideration, i went there. (:

and did i tell you how quiet my phone was today?!
i was kinda having cold war with bf.
cuz he broke his promise yesterday. ):

he promised me he would study yest.
somemore, 100% WILL STUDY hor.
in the end, sleep/play whole day. ):
and at night when i asked if he studied,
he said LATER.
but he dint. ):

so this morning when he msg me.
i was quite reluctant to reply.
and when he said he was studying,
i chose not to disturb him anymore.
so yea, COLD WAR.
but he redeemed himself today. :D

so ya.
back to my point.
i was feeling damn lonely today.
and my phone was unusually quiet. ):

anyway, went to khatib macs
and met kingyin there!
so, YAY.
i wasnt that lonely anymore.

and the next best thing was,
she was alone too!
so yea, we studied together.
kinda okay cuz we werent exactly close
and there was hardly any talking.
haha.

jas msg me about 6pm,
saying she wont be taking shuttle cuz she need go church earlier
to settle tkk stuff.
so i replied saying that i'll go with her and mic
den mayb i can study in church or sth.
cuz i dint wanna stay at macs anymore.
but she dint reply till 6.45pm!
and i was a lil sad/angry?
not really angry lah.
just dint know what took her so long to reply.
if not i would have been church with her and mic already!
but there's a good explanation behind it. (:

and so, left khatib bout 6.50 and went to yishun.
felt lonely again!
cuz normally i'll be with jas mich and gang.
and joelle asked me where they were lo.
so yea, but good explanation behind okay!

and nope, i dint suspect anything so far.
just thot how sucky and lonely my day can get.
plus RETAINERS.
so it's like non-stop suaning about my pronounciation of words. -.-

i tried to mug like every minute lah please.
but kinda failed.
cuz physics refused to get into my head!
so shitty please.

den it was hof.
jas mich cs were late for worship lo.
but hah, i still dint suspect anything. (:

and and; i talked to pastor mong yee before hof!
i stopped her before she walked into the providence.
and she knew i was gonna talk to her about
playing amazing spore and missing drumming lesson tmr.

frankly, i have no intentions of playing lah.
but rzone no new songs
and altho tkk has new songs,
but it's slow songs and aint that difficult.
shld b able to handle on my own.
so yea, i guess pastor MY agreed to let me go play.
and somehow, she talked bout my complexion. -.-
so err, ya. cant help it. =/
hah.

worship was great,
and so was the service.
and altho i brought one huge packet of sweet,
it was a sweetless service for me.
cuz of stupid retainers. -.-
i tried eating one and failed terribly please. -.-

halfway during service,
i received a msg frm yireng saying she wanna talk to me after service!
i freaked out lah. hahaha.
thot gonna get counselling or sth.
but, good explanation behind once again. :D

signed new declaration forms after service.
and "counselling" session soon began.
she just talked about random stuff actually.
like school work, studies, commitments, sister relationship, mum and all.
really super random please.
hahaha.
and it made me miss my shuttle. -.-
but good explanation behind again!

okay okay, i'm coming to the exciting part! :D

jas called me just as i was about to go downstairs.
she told me she and mic went to 7-11 to buy drinks.
and were walking back.
so they asked me to wait at the bus stop.
ohh and jerry shooked my hand when i was entering the lift.
so weird please!
and xing yi said sth like jerry wanted me to ask my mum
what the handshake was for?!
hahaha. no link. =/

so yea.
i was abit lost tho, when i came out of the lift.
so i called jas. but no answer.
den i called mich.
and she asked me to wait at the bus stop
not the one across the road.
and i said okay cuz i thot they were walking frm 7-11 there what.
haha. (:

i sat at the bus stop there and waited for them.
and suddenly, i hear my name..
VIRNICE NG!
i looked ard frantically but couldnt find the source of the sound.
thot it came frm church or sth.

den i heard my name again.
VIRNICE NG!
and this tme, i heard echo!
so i was like, VOID DECK! hah.

and i quickly walked over.
only to find out...
THE WHOLE BFGF GANG WAS THERE!
with 17 slices of cake!
and as i walked there,
they sang me my birthday song!
WOOTS.

i was so touched please.
wanted to cry but no tears.
i'm sorry!
but i was really really really touched.
from the bottom of my heart!
by everything they did.
all the effort and love.
and the HUGE birthday card.
i really love it alot.
and i knew everything they did for me came frm their heart too. (:


well, i got to blow 17 candles! (:
they're so cute please.
to think of such an idea.
and altho i dint get to cut any cake,
it's special! and memorable!
and it'll definitely make history. :D

and their card is WOOTS.
i REALLY LOVE IT ALOT.
each one had their own personal msg
in their own hand made envelope,
taught by mich gan on how to make the envelope.
and they each sealed it with love! :D
it was really really sweet.

den it was, of course, photo taking time.
ernest had the privilege of handing me my present,
on behalf of the gang.
and that prestigious moment was taken down on camera. :D
and many many more happy moments. (:
with gang and huge card. :D

it was really a lovely surprise
and i probably wont forget it my entire life.
i totally love this gang. :D

and each of their lil note,
made me tear, on my train home. (:
it was tears of joy.
tears that tell you i'm happy.
tears that tell you i'm touched.
and tears that tell you i'm blessed.
because i know they mean each and every word
they say in their lil note.
and it means alot alot alot to me.
i could read their lil notes over and over again,
and still find it meaningful. (:

if only i could just recevie cards for presents,
i wouldnt mind.
because to me, cards and thots means so much more than presents. (:
so THANK YOU GANG. :D

okay side track abit,
dad flew off today.
back to sudan i guess.
and this time, i hardly spent any time with him. ):
but i'm glad that at least i managed to send him off.

saw him and ahkhit and the carpark when i was walking home.
and altho i was a lil tired,
i decided to tag along.
because i have yet to pass dad my lil note too! (:

hmm we only dropped him off at the airport
cuz ahkhit gotta get back to work.
and needed to send me off first.
before dad went in, he said my present's at home.
even tho i'm sad that we cant spend my birthday together,
at least he remembered and that's good enuf. (:
and i hope he rmbs to read my lil note of love too! :D

as for now,
it's dedication time. :D
in NO order of preference/importance. (:
because all of you are as equally important.
without any of you, there is no GANG. (:

TO JASMINE GAN
thank you so much for everything.
u and mich probably came up with most of the plan
cuz guys so dont have qing diao. :D
it was really a surprise that i would never forget.
and it's such a meaningful birthday even tho you all are early.
but it doesnt matter because ur thots are felt here,
in my heart. :D
i really thank God for you
and appreciate all the effort u have put in for this special birthday of mine! (:
since dont know when, we became closer.
and i'm so glad we did.
because without you, there wouldnt be so much joy and love in my life!
and you're here in my life all because of Jesus. :D
and thank you Lord! (:
those many hours on the phone.
those countless moments of laughter.
those memorable times of retardness.
it will never be forgotten. (:
and i'm looking forward to many many many more months of friendship and love.
and i believe the gang will last!
no disbanding okay!
once again, thank you girl, for everything.
for loving and accepting me for who i am.
most imptly, thank you for being you. (:
iloveyou.

TO MICHELLE GAN
you still hold your title as IMPORTANT.
because without you, the gang wouldnt have envelopes
to put their lil notes of love into the huge card. :D
and you're just as important as jas in the planning of the surprise. (:
thank you so much, for all the thots and efforts.
because of the lil things you have done for me,
you have created a big smile on my face! :D
i also thank God for having you in my life.
and just like jas, we became close unknowingly
and our friendship becomes an experience of a lifetime.
before knowing you all,
coming to church was just looking around for someone i know to sit with,
and trying desperately to fit in
but with you all,
i'm un-afraid to be who i am.
to show what's inside of me.
and the much laughter and craziness within me. (:
altho we dont talk on the phone like me and jas,
but u're always there listening.
and you know everything. (:
and i know, our friendship will last.
because it has a strong foundation!
and it didnt come easy. (:
it took me seventeen years to realise i have a fren like you!
and a gang which i know i can always rely on. (:
so thank you very very much.
it's a really memorable seventeen birthday. :D
iloveyou.

TO NELWYN NG
since dont know when, i started calling you bf.
since dont know when, u started calling me gf.
and i'm so glad i did.
because if i didnt,
i wouldnt know what joy and laughter it could bring me.
the gang started all because of the bfgf thingy.
and that's why we're called the bfgf gang. :D
and we decided to spread the love
so we had photgrapher and useful PAs. (:
in any case, i'm thankful for you, bf!
even tho u're still young, but i know u're matured in some ways,
and still growing!
i hope to influence you in the right way too. (:
you know, your lil note was the one that made me tear the most.
because there's so much maturity hidden beneath those words,
even tho you may not know it.
so, thank you for everything bf.
i believe you had ur part to play in this lovely surprise.
and it made my day! :D
i know i'll always be your dajiejie.
and you'll always be my xiaodidi. (:
thank God for you!

TO ERNEST NAH
we werent close to began with.
even after i was close to jas and mich.
i still recall the many moments of teasing.
you ryan and japheth.
the STOP TALKING TO YOUSELF thing. hah. (:
but because of the gang,
we had many other moments of joy/laughter/craziness.
not forgetting, your HIGH-PITCHED LAUGHTER. :D
and altho i do not know what part you played in this surprise,
but your presence makes the difference.
in fact, the WHOLE GANG's presence makes the big difference. (:
because without u all,
my birthday wouldnt be meaningful at all.
instead, it'll just be any other day.
but because all of you bothered to love and care and bring me joy,
you all did something special for me!
and your camera deserves some credit too. :D
all in all, than you so much for everything.
it is definitely a birthday to remember.
much more joyful moments coming up, i believe!
and i dont know what else to say except
thank God for you!

TO CHOO SHUIN
like ernest, we werent very close to begin with.
it was only after jas and mich joined the tkk ministry,
then we became close. (:
and thanks for being so magnanimous.
cuz you are always the one that we teased and all.
but you just took it in your stride.
and i'm glad you did.
because that has brought much joy to the gang.
and it doesnt matter if u're the most talkative one in gang,
because no matter what, we stand as one gang. (:
and we know we have each other's back.
i still recall once when i was concerned about what others said bout our gang.
but you reminded me/us that we dont havta care what others say.
so thank you. (:
and thanks for taking the time and effort to prepare this surprise for me too.
i dont know what part you played in this surprise,
but it shld be as important
because the surprise wouldnt be complete without you. (:
FULL ATTENDANCE. this time.
one of the rare times.
and i hope we'll have more of this.
once again, thank you so much for everything.
for making this surprise such a success.
and i really appreciate it! :D
thank God for you!

TO GABRIEL LING
because of bf, i came to know you.
because of cs, i came to know you.
before that, we were totally strangers.
but i'm thankful to have known you.
thankful to God as well as the both of them.
and even tho you're the quietest in the gang,
we know you still love the gang. (:
and you contribute in the lil ways.
at first you were quite reluctant about joining
and we gave you a choice.
you chose to accept the gang.
and i'm proud to say, you made the right choice. :D
even tho u're the last to join the gang,
nevertheless u're just as important.
and again, i'm uncertain of the role u played in this surprise
but i know much effort and time was put in.
and your birthday wishes to me became a thank you card. :D
but it's okay
because my birth on the 10 september 1990
has given you a reason to be thankful,
especially to God. (:
thank you once again,
for making my birthday in 2007,
a very special one.
thank God for you!

okay next will be the official thankyou speech that i owe the gang. :D
i know i'm getting abit naggy and long-winded.
but i'm just too thankful to stop saying thank you to the gang. (:

TO THE GANG
thank you so much for putting together this pleasant surprise.
i dont know the process of the planning and all,
but i know it took lots of effort, time and love.
and i'm really thankful for all these that u all have done for me.
it's way beyond what i expected.
but i'm really really really happy. (:
you guys really changed my perspective of birthdays.
my last year birthday was especially the worst
cuz i only spend it with one girl, MUGGING.
no cake from friends, only from my beloved family.
and just when i thot today was one of the worst and lonely days of my life,
you guys changed it to the best and most memorable day of my life.
and i believe there's more where that came from. :D
and you all really brought a whole new meaning to birthdays.
thank you for making my existence feel worth and appreciated.
and thank you for making me feel loved by you all. (:
i'm really grateful and thankful to God for every single one for you.
and the bfgf gang shall NOT ever disband.
no matter what happens.
once again, thank you for making my 2007 birthday
such a special and meaningful one.
and thank you for accepting and loving me for who i am.
THANK YOU GANG and MUCH LOVED. (:

i dont dare count how many thank yous i've said.
but just know that i meant every single thank you,
from the bottom of my heart. (:

words cant express the feelings that stirring within me.
all you gotta know is, i'm very happy. (:
because of them, i found a new meaning of birthdays. (:
things will never be the same again.
because it will be better. :D

so that's the explanation behind all the loneliness and quietness today.
they were preparing something special for me! :D

and i hereby promise photos in another post again! :D

i dont know if i did the right thing.
but i felt relieved after i did.
and i didnt lie
because i really dont know what's inside of me.

somehow i just feel that it's not on one.
but then again, i cant be sure.
because there's too many uncertainties.
and too much insecurities.

yet is it right to say,
and wrong not to say?
how long can this secret be kept.
will that day really come.
i really dont know.

V I R N I C E
there's no one else like me cause' God made me special. (:
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