every moment; every planned coincidence

Sunday, September 09, 2007

8:21 PM Y

♥ just the girl.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMANDA! (:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHONG YANG! (:

okay.
my mood just got really ruined.
to the extent that i'm missing high school musical two right now,
when the tv is just like a few steps away frm me
and i can hear everything. -.-
my birthday eve is starting to get worst. ):

to someone.
i'm not the one who hasnt been trying.
it isnt fair to say that neither side is trying.
because i tried,
but mayb u dint try seeing?

and we did ask you to join the gang
but u dint want?
mayb you thot it was too childish for you or something.

as for the surprise,
they did it as a gang.
and they were afraid if they asked u along,
you would feel left out or something.

in the first place,
if u really cared about making my birthday special,
you would be the one organising it,
like how i organised ur birthday surprise.

in any case, i'm just really disappointed.
about the way u say/treat me and my gang.
you have ur own clique too.
just that they're not in church.
what makes them so different frm my grp of frens?

and it's not like we WANT to leave you out.
you chose to leave youself out.
like when we asked u to join us for dinner and all.
we tried okay. ):

and you know,
how i wished we could be like jas and mic.
they spend so much quality time together.
and they enjoy telling each other stuff.

so how bout us?
i would really treasure our quality time
if you ever gave me a chance too.
but sometimes, i'm so afraid of the way u judge me,
just like the way u judge my grp of frens,
that i dare not tell you things.
you make urself unapproachable
but i dare say, i tried.
i really did.

and okay, mayb i am at fault too.
but unless u tell me,
how would i know where i went wrong.
did u even TRY telling me?

mayb our relationship started off on the wrong foot.
we dint cultivate a good one frm young.
and things arent looking good now either.
and i thot we both promise to try
but it doesnt seem to be working.

is this the end?
is this how far our relationship can go,
that i dont even have the chance to call you my best friend?
and when i try, i'm irritating?

i really wish things could change for the better.
but i can only pray.
if this is the only way that our relationship can be,
den i'm tired of trying too.
sigh. ):

VIRNICE.