every moment; every planned coincidence

Saturday, September 08, 2007

2:19 AM Y

♥ just the girl.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BENEDICT(*efc)! :D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIEW KEE! :D

september is a month of birthdays.
i told you so, i told you so! :D

and WOOTS. :D
i'm ultra happy today please.
and i shall tell you why.
in a few more sentences time. :D
and it's making me UNSLEEPABLE!
tho i have amazing singapore tmr.
so AHHHH! hah.

and it's gonna be a long post.
but dont stop reading! :D

so okay, talked to jasmine on the phone again last nite.
until her phone no batt.
not sure what time was that.
but i suppose it's close to 4am? :D

and i woke up at 11.45am today.
and thot to myself,
WHAT A BORING DAY IT IS.
couldnt find anyone to mug with. ):

planned to go amk lib.
and if too many ppl/cant get seats,
i would go to the mac nearby.
but both plan A and B failed lah. ):

in the end, i was walking aimlessly along amk road.
like some lonely loser. ):
how sad please.
at that time i was really lost and all.
dont know where to go.
and ended up at some void deck.
wanted to study there
but then jas msged me and suggested khatibs macs.
after much consideration, i went there. (:

and did i tell you how quiet my phone was today?!
i was kinda having cold war with bf.
cuz he broke his promise yesterday. ):

he promised me he would study yest.
somemore, 100% WILL STUDY hor.
in the end, sleep/play whole day. ):
and at night when i asked if he studied,
he said LATER.
but he dint. ):

so this morning when he msg me.
i was quite reluctant to reply.
and when he said he was studying,
i chose not to disturb him anymore.
so yea, COLD WAR.
but he redeemed himself today. :D

so ya.
back to my point.
i was feeling damn lonely today.
and my phone was unusually quiet. ):

anyway, went to khatib macs
and met kingyin there!
so, YAY.
i wasnt that lonely anymore.

and the next best thing was,
she was alone too!
so yea, we studied together.
kinda okay cuz we werent exactly close
and there was hardly any talking.
haha.

jas msg me about 6pm,
saying she wont be taking shuttle cuz she need go church earlier
to settle tkk stuff.
so i replied saying that i'll go with her and mic
den mayb i can study in church or sth.
cuz i dint wanna stay at macs anymore.
but she dint reply till 6.45pm!
and i was a lil sad/angry?
not really angry lah.
just dint know what took her so long to reply.
if not i would have been church with her and mic already!
but there's a good explanation behind it. (:

and so, left khatib bout 6.50 and went to yishun.
felt lonely again!
cuz normally i'll be with jas mich and gang.
and joelle asked me where they were lo.
so yea, but good explanation behind okay!

and nope, i dint suspect anything so far.
just thot how sucky and lonely my day can get.
plus RETAINERS.
so it's like non-stop suaning about my pronounciation of words. -.-

i tried to mug like every minute lah please.
but kinda failed.
cuz physics refused to get into my head!
so shitty please.

den it was hof.
jas mich cs were late for worship lo.
but hah, i still dint suspect anything. (:

and and; i talked to pastor mong yee before hof!
i stopped her before she walked into the providence.
and she knew i was gonna talk to her about
playing amazing spore and missing drumming lesson tmr.

frankly, i have no intentions of playing lah.
but rzone no new songs
and altho tkk has new songs,
but it's slow songs and aint that difficult.
shld b able to handle on my own.
so yea, i guess pastor MY agreed to let me go play.
and somehow, she talked bout my complexion. -.-
so err, ya. cant help it. =/
hah.

worship was great,
and so was the service.
and altho i brought one huge packet of sweet,
it was a sweetless service for me.
cuz of stupid retainers. -.-
i tried eating one and failed terribly please. -.-

halfway during service,
i received a msg frm yireng saying she wanna talk to me after service!
i freaked out lah. hahaha.
thot gonna get counselling or sth.
but, good explanation behind once again. :D

signed new declaration forms after service.
and "counselling" session soon began.
she just talked about random stuff actually.
like school work, studies, commitments, sister relationship, mum and all.
really super random please.
hahaha.
and it made me miss my shuttle. -.-
but good explanation behind again!

okay okay, i'm coming to the exciting part! :D

jas called me just as i was about to go downstairs.
she told me she and mic went to 7-11 to buy drinks.
and were walking back.
so they asked me to wait at the bus stop.
ohh and jerry shooked my hand when i was entering the lift.
so weird please!
and xing yi said sth like jerry wanted me to ask my mum
what the handshake was for?!
hahaha. no link. =/

so yea.
i was abit lost tho, when i came out of the lift.
so i called jas. but no answer.
den i called mich.
and she asked me to wait at the bus stop
not the one across the road.
and i said okay cuz i thot they were walking frm 7-11 there what.
haha. (:

i sat at the bus stop there and waited for them.
and suddenly, i hear my name..
VIRNICE NG!
i looked ard frantically but couldnt find the source of the sound.
thot it came frm church or sth.

den i heard my name again.
VIRNICE NG!
and this tme, i heard echo!
so i was like, VOID DECK! hah.

and i quickly walked over.
only to find out...
THE WHOLE BFGF GANG WAS THERE!
with 17 slices of cake!
and as i walked there,
they sang me my birthday song!
WOOTS.

i was so touched please.
wanted to cry but no tears.
i'm sorry!
but i was really really really touched.
from the bottom of my heart!
by everything they did.
all the effort and love.
and the HUGE birthday card.
i really love it alot.
and i knew everything they did for me came frm their heart too. (:

well, i got to blow 17 candles! (:
they're so cute please.
to think of such an idea.
and altho i dint get to cut any cake,
it's special! and memorable!
and it'll definitely make history. :D

and their card is WOOTS.
i REALLY LOVE IT ALOT.
each one had their own personal msg
in their own hand made envelope,
taught by mich gan on how to make the envelope.
and they each sealed it with love! :D
it was really really sweet.

den it was, of course, photo taking time.
ernest had the privilege of handing me my present,
on behalf of the gang.
and that prestigious moment was taken down on camera. :D
and many many more happy moments. (:
with gang and huge card. :D

it was really a lovely surprise
and i probably wont forget it my entire life.
i totally love this gang. :D

and each of their lil note,
made me tear, on my train home. (:
it was tears of joy.
tears that tell you i'm happy.
tears that tell you i'm touched.
and tears that tell you i'm blessed.
because i know they mean each and every word
they say in their lil note.
and it means alot alot alot to me.
i could read their lil notes over and over again,
and still find it meaningful. (:

if only i could just recevie cards for presents,
i wouldnt mind.
because to me, cards and thots means so much more than presents. (:
so THANK YOU GANG. :D

okay side track abit,
dad flew off today.
back to sudan i guess.
and this time, i hardly spent any time with him. ):
but i'm glad that at least i managed to send him off.

saw him and ahkhit and the carpark when i was walking home.
and altho i was a lil tired,
i decided to tag along.
because i have yet to pass dad my lil note too! (:

hmm we only dropped him off at the airport
cuz ahkhit gotta get back to work.
and needed to send me off first.
before dad went in, he said my present's at home.
even tho i'm sad that we cant spend my birthday together,
at least he remembered and that's good enuf. (:
and i hope he rmbs to read my lil note of love too! :D

as for now,
it's dedication time. :D
in NO order of preference/importance. (:
because all of you are as equally important.
without any of you, there is no GANG. (:

TO JASMINE GAN
thank you so much for everything.
u and mich probably came up with most of the plan
cuz guys so dont have qing diao. :D
it was really a surprise that i would never forget.
and it's such a meaningful birthday even tho you all are early.
but it doesnt matter because ur thots are felt here,
in my heart. :D
i really thank God for you
and appreciate all the effort u have put in for this special birthday of mine! (:
since dont know when, we became closer.
and i'm so glad we did.
because without you, there wouldnt be so much joy and love in my life!
and you're here in my life all because of Jesus. :D
and thank you Lord! (:
those many hours on the phone.
those countless moments of laughter.
those memorable times of retardness.
it will never be forgotten. (:
and i'm looking forward to many many many more months of friendship and love.
and i believe the gang will last!
no disbanding okay!
once again, thank you girl, for everything.
for loving and accepting me for who i am.
most imptly, thank you for being you. (:
iloveyou.

TO MICHELLE GAN
you still hold your title as IMPORTANT.
because without you, the gang wouldnt have envelopes
to put their lil notes of love into the huge card. :D
and you're just as important as jas in the planning of the surprise. (:
thank you so much, for all the thots and efforts.
because of the lil things you have done for me,
you have created a big smile on my face! :D
i also thank God for having you in my life.
and just like jas, we became close unknowingly
and our friendship becomes an experience of a lifetime.
before knowing you all,
coming to church was just looking around for someone i know to sit with,
and trying desperately to fit in
but with you all,
i'm un-afraid to be who i am.
to show what's inside of me.
and the much laughter and craziness within me. (:
altho we dont talk on the phone like me and jas,
but u're always there listening.
and you know everything. (:
and i know, our friendship will last.
because it has a strong foundation!
and it didnt come easy. (:
it took me seventeen years to realise i have a fren like you!
and a gang which i know i can always rely on. (:
so thank you very very much.
it's a really memorable seventeen birthday. :D
iloveyou.

TO NELWYN NG
since dont know when, i started calling you bf.
since dont know when, u started calling me gf.
and i'm so glad i did.
because if i didnt,
i wouldnt know what joy and laughter it could bring me.
the gang started all because of the bfgf thingy.
and that's why we're called the bfgf gang. :D
and we decided to spread the love
so we had photgrapher and useful PAs. (:
in any case, i'm thankful for you, bf!
even tho u're still young, but i know u're matured in some ways,
and still growing!
i hope to influence you in the right way too. (:
you know, your lil note was the one that made me tear the most.
because there's so much maturity hidden beneath those words,
even tho you may not know it.
so, thank you for everything bf.
i believe you had ur part to play in this lovely surprise.
and it made my day! :D
i know i'll always be your dajiejie.
and you'll always be my xiaodidi. (:
thank God for you!

TO ERNEST NAH
we werent close to began with.
even after i was close to jas and mich.
i still recall the many moments of teasing.
you ryan and japheth.
the STOP TALKING TO YOUSELF thing. hah. (:
but because of the gang,
we had many other moments of joy/laughter/craziness.
not forgetting, your HIGH-PITCHED LAUGHTER. :D
and altho i do not know what part you played in this surprise,
but your presence makes the difference.
in fact, the WHOLE GANG's presence makes the big difference. (:
because without u all,
my birthday wouldnt be meaningful at all.
instead, it'll just be any other day.
but because all of you bothered to love and care and bring me joy,
you all did something special for me!
and your camera deserves some credit too. :D
all in all, than you so much for everything.
it is definitely a birthday to remember.
much more joyful moments coming up, i believe!
and i dont know what else to say except
thank God for you!

TO CHOO SHUIN
like ernest, we werent very close to begin with.
it was only after jas and mich joined the tkk ministry,
then we became close. (:
and thanks for being so magnanimous.
cuz you are always the one that we teased and all.
but you just took it in your stride.
and i'm glad you did.
because that has brought much joy to the gang.
and it doesnt matter if u're the most talkative one in gang,
because no matter what, we stand as one gang. (:
and we know we have each other's back.
i still recall once when i was concerned about what others said bout our gang.
but you reminded me/us that we dont havta care what others say.
so thank you. (:
and thanks for taking the time and effort to prepare this surprise for me too.
i dont know what part you played in this surprise,
but it shld be as important
because the surprise wouldnt be complete without you. (:
FULL ATTENDANCE. this time.
one of the rare times.
and i hope we'll have more of this.
once again, thank you so much for everything.
for making this surprise such a success.
and i really appreciate it! :D
thank God for you!

TO GABRIEL LING
because of bf, i came to know you.
because of cs, i came to know you.
before that, we were totally strangers.
but i'm thankful to have known you.
thankful to God as well as the both of them.
and even tho you're the quietest in the gang,
we know you still love the gang. (:
and you contribute in the lil ways.
at first you were quite reluctant about joining
and we gave you a choice.
you chose to accept the gang.
and i'm proud to say, you made the right choice. :D
even tho u're the last to join the gang,
nevertheless u're just as important.
and again, i'm uncertain of the role u played in this surprise
but i know much effort and time was put in.
and your birthday wishes to me became a thank you card. :D
but it's okay
because my birth on the 10 september 1990
has given you a reason to be thankful,
especially to God. (:
thank you once again,
for making my birthday in 2007,
a very special one.
thank God for you!

okay next will be the official thankyou speech that i owe the gang. :D
i know i'm getting abit naggy and long-winded.
but i'm just too thankful to stop saying thank you to the gang. (:

TO THE GANG
thank you so much for putting together this pleasant surprise.
i dont know the process of the planning and all,
but i know it took lots of effort, time and love.
and i'm really thankful for all these that u all have done for me.
it's way beyond what i expected.
but i'm really really really happy. (:
you guys really changed my perspective of birthdays.
my last year birthday was especially the worst
cuz i only spend it with one girl, MUGGING.
no cake from friends, only from my beloved family.
and just when i thot today was one of the worst and lonely days of my life,
you guys changed it to the best and most memorable day of my life.
and i believe there's more where that came from. :D
and you all really brought a whole new meaning to birthdays.
thank you for making my existence feel worth and appreciated.
and thank you for making me feel loved by you all. (:
i'm really grateful and thankful to God for every single one for you.
and the bfgf gang shall NOT ever disband.
no matter what happens.
once again, thank you for making my 2007 birthday
such a special and meaningful one.
and thank you for accepting and loving me for who i am.
THANK YOU GANG and MUCH LOVED. (:

i dont dare count how many thank yous i've said.
but just know that i meant every single thank you,
from the bottom of my heart. (:

words cant express the feelings that stirring within me.
all you gotta know is, i'm very happy. (:
because of them, i found a new meaning of birthdays. (:
things will never be the same again.
because it will be better. :D

so that's the explanation behind all the loneliness and quietness today.
they were preparing something special for me! :D

and i hereby promise photos in another post again! :D

i dont know if i did the right thing.
but i felt relieved after i did.
and i didnt lie
because i really dont know what's inside of me.

somehow i just feel that it's not on one.
but then again, i cant be sure.
because there's too many uncertainties.
and too much insecurities.

yet is it right to say,
and wrong not to say?
how long can this secret be kept.
will that day really come.
i really dont know.

VIRNICE.