Wednesday, October 31, 2007
12:12 AM Y
♥ just the girl.
i realised that i dint just mess up my promos.
i messed up everything else as well.
i finally concluded that,
in all my seventeen years of life on this earth,
this year
HAS to be the worst year of my life.
i really messed up big time.
and i think nothing that i do can change things back.
and i mean,
NOTHING.
both good and bad things happened.
but sorry to say, more
BAD things happened.
i have no idea how i am gonna survive thru this.
somewhere in the middle,
makes it so hard for me to go anywhere.
the worst thing is,
i feel like i'm drifting away from God.
mayb cuz i havent been spending enuf time with Him.
sorry Lord. ):
just when i thot i had your support,
u kinda walked away from me.
not purposely, but unknowingly?
mayb it's just a natural reaction.
so i guess i cant blame you.
but why cant things just remain the way the are.
THIS IS ALL MY FAULT.why do i keep messing up?
just when will i learn?
sigh.
somewhere between the present and the past.
not the present and the future.
*there was a time, when i was so afraid.
i thot i reach the end; but baby, that was then.
