Sunday, October 07, 2007
12:57 AM Y
♥ just the girl.
sorry for not updating in awhile.
well, promos are finally over.
but somehow, i'm not that happy. =/
let's just start with promos.
i cried BEFORE promos,
DURING promos,
and AFTER promos.
wow right?
i sound like i cry so easily or sth.
but, sigh.
i thot promos would be slightly better than mid yr CT.
but i highly doubt so?
i think only my physics will do better than mid yrs.
other than that,
the rest are like sai.
esp MATH and CHEM. ):
math was the most depressing one please.
it was the only paper that i walked into the hall with confidence.
yet it was how shitty please?
it's toally UN-DO-ABLE lah!
let me elaborate on that.
i already MINUS 58 marks.
if miraculously i get all correct,
the most i can get is 42 marks?!
like how shitty is that lah!
sigh. ):
seriously, i really think i'm gonna retain?
if i promote, it's really by God's grace.
and if that happens, i already told myself i'll work doubly hard.
like i'm gonna start studying frm this coming sch hols onwards.
but if it's God's will for me to retain,
then i guess i will?
or mayb i'll just go overseas or sth. =/
whatever it is,
promos is finally OVER.
i shall not think of the results at the moment.
cuz there's nth i can do except pray.
in any case,
there are a few people i would like to thank.
#1 SHIRLEY ANG YI/JING JING.
my latest b** and wife. :D
you saw the happy/sad/crazy virnice ng.
be it before or during or after promos.
you saw everything.
the tears. the stress. the craziness.
and you were there for me.
you cheered me on
and did not allow me to give up.
you stood by me
and walked thru promos with me.
and for that, i owe you a big THANK YOU. (:
i love you. :D
#2 JASMINE GAN CHENG YAN. :D
on late night mugging days,
you called me up
and lighten my stress-ness.
those talkings made me laugh
and helped me relax for awhile.
you never fail to pray for me every night,
send me smses of encouragment and prayers,
and constantly motivate me,
asking me to jiayou.
without that, i would not have survived thru promos.
so thank you girl.
i really appreciate it, ALOT. (:
i love you. :D
#3 NELWYN NG JUN WEN.
thank you,
for the prayers every morning,
each day before i take my paper.
it really helps to calm my nerves.
and boost a lil of my confidence.
knowing that a whole grp of people is behind me. (:
thank you lil bf. :D
#4 GABRIEL LING
words cannot express how thankful i am to you.
for going thru this terrible time with me.
giving me all the help i need,
be it in my studies,
or even mentally, physically and emotionally.
and most imptly,
you did not give up on me.
even tho all seemed hopeless,
you held on to the lil hope that's left.
and you encouraged me to fight on.
altho you're tired of telling me the same old things
over and over again.
but you didnt stop trying. (:
so, thank you.
and you know what. :D
p.s i spared you the misery of having to see your chi name
and letting others see your chi name as well. :D
and to all those out there,
who prayed for me and supported me
in one way or another,
THANK YOU.
for God saw me thru this,
and it's probably because of the many prayers he heard. (:
so yah.
and i thot i could take a break after promos?
but NOPE.
now i'm having PW and CHI intensive.
so shitty please.
and A level chi is a few weeks away!
argh. =/
and pw is seriously driving me mad?
not only is the distance a killer,
the thinking, and organizing
and rephrasing is RAHHHHH too.
bleah.
and i totally miss h.s due to pw today.
they lost frisbee but won rounders and soccer.
so thank God for He is fair. (:
and we lost capt's ball last sat.
got second tho.
and considering the fact that we were one player down,
i think we put up a good fight already. (:
but i'm really discouraged by someone.
just read something that i probably shouldnt have read?
it's not numbers.the thing is, you said you WOULD go.and backing out last minute just isnt the right thing to do.it's totally irresponsible cuz you just abandoned the team.and in the first place,what makes you think you're just a number?we called you because you said you're going to play,but you werent there at the very last minute.it's not as if you dint say you were going,and we last minute dint have enuf players,so we called you.if that really happened,then ya, u can blame us for just treating u as a number.but no! that wasnt the case.every member in the team plays an important role.without someone, the team isnt complete.and there's no star player or whatsoever.even the best player cant go on without a team.and you're just saying you're a numberonly because you THINK you are.nobody said that.so stop looking down on yourselfand den blaming it on others.ohh, and super october was super cute?
potential general paper questions were asked. :D
pastor alan is just so good at that.
coming up with lame questions.
like, what was on sale on monday, $1.10 for 5?!
HAH.
den it was tug of war.
EAST vs WEST.
reg A and C combined.
so woots. :D
and EAST won.
so YAY. :D
and ohh, did i mentioned that i was super late? =/
due to pw, yet again. -.-
but thank God i came before alter call.
thank God i dint miss it.
because it was an experience of a lifetime?
to feel that strong presence of the Holy Spirit.
altho i dint exactly get the entire msg frm the sharing by pastor chui,
i was greatly touched during alter call.
pastor chui asked those who wanted to receive the baptism of the Holy Spirit,
to stand on her right side there.
and because i already had it,
i dint.
but somehow, sister susan just came and prayed for me.
at first, nothing happened.
i just stood there and praise God while she just prayed.
i dint feel anything, couldnt cry,
and no, nothing.
den i guess sister susan could tell that i dint wanna let go?
i mean, i myself dint know?
so she was like praying, say,
dont hold back, dont harden your heart.
pour out everything to God.
let the Holy Spirit take over you.
let God take control.
and yea, i felt it.
i really did.
and it was really an awesome experience with God.
the very first time that i experience that,
was during the 1st hof camp.
when i received the baptism of the HS.
except that this time was stronger.
and i couldnt control.
i just cried and cried and cried.
and couldnt stop.
my eyes started to swell and everything.
but ya, just wanna thank God for bringing me back closer to Him
yet once again. (:
and and,
pastor chian knows already! =/
but he's super cute please. :D
havent talked to pastor mong yee yet.
but intend to, after service tmr.
but den got peacemakers meeting.
so yah, guess after that?
hope she's not busy or anything.
and i'm kan jiong! =/
ahhh, just pray that everything will go well.
i have lots of thots going thru my mind right now.
i wanna let it out all here.
but it's getting late and i'm tired. =/
right now it's 3.50am
and that thing fell aslp again after my wake-up call.
bleah and hmph.
oh well,
shall write out my thots here tmr then.
as in, later tonight.
and it's pw again later. ):
training starts on monday!
so WOOTS.
and it's BYE BYE FATS. :D
if what's within is made known,some things change, unknowingly.and no matter how hard you try,it's just not gonna go back the way it used to be.
