Tuesday, November 13, 2007
11:10 PM Y
♥ just the girl.
hello.
it's tuesday once again.
which means, SHITTY ANTI-MALARIA PILLS.
and choo shuan can still say it gives him dreams at night?!
HAH.
i hope nothing goes wrong this time.
please pray for me, thanks! :D
sunday was woots!
pastor Nah preached about holding holds! :D
God is holding our hands
and thus, we must also hold the hands of others.
that is, to reach out!
he told of this really nice and sweet story.
about this lil girl and her dad.
they were crossing a bridge or sth.
daddy was afraid, with regards to safety.
so he asked lil girl to hold his hand.
the lil girl replied, saying nope, u hold my hand.
daddy was puzzled and asked, isnt it the same?
and the lil girl said, no, it isnt!
if i hold ur hand, when something happens, i may let go.
but if YOU hold my hand,
i know that no matter what happens,
you wont let go. :D
so awwww right!
sweet lil thing. :D
basically, we should know that no matter what happens,
God will never ever let go of our hands.
and because of that, we ARE his hands.
therefore we have to keep reaching out
and hold the hands of others. :D
played at rzone that fateful sunday.
i think i'm pissing the whole rzone band. ):
seriously, i cant play under stress!
and somehow, playing at rzone just stresses me out!
it's super diff frm tkk lah. ):
sigh, sorry people.
i'll practise even harder. =/
after service, there was POR4 meeting.
and den skit rehearsal after that.
i'm acting some minor role, heh,
and i think jessica's doing a great job! :D
more rehearsals this thurday and sunday.
and meeting this friday!
gonna get itnery and all. :D
ok sidetrack abit, i'm leaving in about 7 days times.
and i'm super excited about it!
my first ever mission trip,
and it's all for God. :D
i'm definitely gonna miss everyone,
but then again, i cant wait to see the ppl there too!
especially the children. :D
cant wait, and excited to finally do sth for God. :D
after the rehearsal,
i met up with jie and wall.
we accompanied her to town before going home tgt.
and then it was RUNNING! :D
the usual thing i love to do, but then again,
it was a whole new experience and it was woots. :D
had macs for dinner.
kinda contradicting hor?
i went to run off those fats
and i went home to eat it all again! ):
ohh well, i still got training! :D
monday was math AGAIN.
3 hours for like two questions?!
so dumb lah please.
but the woots thing was FONDUE! :D
chocolate/ice cream fondue!
at swensen, with jas mic nel and choo shuan!
someone was lazy. -.-
and ernest nah is currently at thailand!
so anyway, we also had fries and fried mushrooms!
yummy yum yum. :D
but shitty thing, it's those FATS again. ):
i'm how contradicting lah.
thank God it was TRAINING after fondue. :D
i hope u guys ran at orchard road? :D
training was sprints, my favourite.
thank God it wasnt nyp route
cuz it would certainly make me puke.
after all that fat-eating! HAH.
i went home after bathing.
with files and stuff frm my locker.
so heavy please.
but was all of a sudden feeling tired and depressed.
and i had no idea why. sigh.
was supposed to meet girlfriend today.
but he last min say another day,
just cuz i told him i had to be at dhoby ghaut at 7pm.
bleah, he demanded tampines. =/
ohh, well.
but today was quite a slacky day for me.
had math in the morning.
i was super late.
saw my schedule wrongly.
thot it started at 10.30 and thot it was okay to reach about 10.45. =/
but guess what, it started at 10!
and i was later than late! =/
and and, it ended early! -.-
self declared by us tho.
we left at bout 12.30pm liddat.
once again, it was a total waste of time.
i went home after that and it was MORE a total waste of time.
i
WANTED to study.
but sai, i watched tv and fell aslp. =/
went to dinner with wall after that.
and now, i'm here.
without anything done today.
and now for randoms.
i'm feeling quite shitty now.
depressed and all.
wonder if it's cuz of the pills.
because depression IS one of the side effects. sigh.
really, time flies.
flies so fast i can hardly make good use of it before it flies away. ):
it's been one and a half month now.
and i'm happy that the feelings are still there.
but somehow, i'm letting my insecurities eat into me.
because i know i have to say it one day.
and this might just end it all.
i'm so afraid for that day to come.
but how long can i drag it.
i'm acting strangely, i put emo nicks,
and i just push away the topic when talked about.
i dont know, but i just wanna treasure everything i have now.
it's the present that matters right? sigh.
i'm sorry...
and another prob coming my way..
we seem further than before.
u're always talking to her now.
and it's so difficult to even talk to you.
even you realised i've been neglected.
because of my beliefs, i dare not comment.
and i dont know what to say.
but i could still be a listening ear.
but u still chose not to.
u're different, and i guess people change.
just that, ur change is
DRASTIC.u're one of the 2 best things i have there.
now that one's gone, i only have you.
but seems like now, i've lost both.
what's the point in staying there.
i've lost all motivation to carry on.
mayb i should just leave that horrible place.
the place that brought me more tears than joy.
more bad memories than good ones.
ohh Lord, please tell me what i should do right now.rainbows cant tell it all. ):
