Monday, May 25, 2009
1:12 AM Y
♥ just the girl.
well, lately everything is going way way HORRIBLE.
i dont even know where to start ranting.
or mayb people are getting sick of me ranting.
AAHHHHH i just needa go some place and shout it all out.
cuz nowadays, crying dont seem to help.
so mayb shouting will..
and sigh, i hate to admit,
but i think i'm changing,
changing into a very short-tempered
and easily irritated person.
and the ironic thing is that,
i've been saying how change is a scary thing.
yet, the same is happening to myself.
how can i stop it.
mayb, keep myself happy?
how to keep myself happy,
i'm thinking...
and thinking...
and thinking..
final answer: NO ANSWER.
verdict is, I NEED TO EAT ICE CREAM NOW.
okay, i'll try
HAPPY THOTS now.
had like KILLER training on friday.
berenice from rgs came to aj to train.
and we did like 200m reps.
min was six and max was eight.
so guess how many i did?
like EIGHT TIMES LAH!
i still cant believe i did so many.
but the last two times was just to accompany berenice
if not she'll be running alone with the guys.
well, i struggled like mad.
it's like so much latic acid at my hamstrings and quartz.
but i didnt wanna give up or stop or finish with a lousy timing.
so even tho i have no more competitions already,
i still just whack all the way.
my timings were:
37s, 35s, 35s, 35s, 35s, 34s, 35s and 33.5s.
it's
CRAZY i tell you.
and coach was impressed too!
hahah.
and den he went on to say how i shld continue with track in uni.
continue running for another at least 3 years
so that my talent and efforts will not go to waste.
well, i'm still considering lah.
first thing first,
dont even know can go uni anot. =/
hopefully, by God's grace, i can.
den think again lo.
cuz might be abit sian of running le.
yet at the same time, dont really wanna give up track.
what a dilemma.
i'll just leave the thinking for the future.
right now, it's the As i'm fighting.
other happy thots include:
every moment spent with you.
minus all the lil arguements we had.
spending time with God.
hof and sunday service.
other than that, I FEEL LIKE SHIT now.
alright, enuf ranting and grumbling.
gonna try and do tutorials now.
HATE THEM.
sigh.
i'm OUT.
i miss those times when u were my wall.
if i hadnt acted on impulse then,
would things be better now?
would we have had a better friendship first?
would we have walk right with God?
would we not have bickered over lil and insignificant things?
sigh, all in all,
i know i still i love you..
